my nightmares have gotten worse. my fear of being asleep is debilitating. it’s getting harder and harder to remind myself that i’m being excessively paranoid about things that are “unlikely” or some shit. i’m convinced that i’m constantly in danger. i don’t like being asleep because it means i can’t defend myself or my family. i don’t like not being in control of my surroundings. i want barbed wire on the fence. i want a taser. i want a full, realtime security system where there’s a security agent constantly watching the cameras and who will call 911 when something is happening. i want to be […]
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Horrible Nightmares
As if the time goes “tick tock, tick tock†as if the seconds turn to minutes and the minutes turn to hours and then day by day the sun effects the way you live your life as if now….. You start to rot away!
You begin to write and you turn blank as if you forget how to breathe. You turn pale and flustered as if you turn and a train comes by and your life flashes before one eye…. Opens and you are starring into darkness.
You have horrible nightmares that make you never want to be alone. The darkness takes over your mind and surrounds […]
I have dealt with chronic depression and severe anxiety for years. I also have two neurological conditions, fibromyalgia and narcolepsy which give me horrible pain when I’m awake and horrible nightmares when I’m asleep. I feel very alone and there’s a voice in my head who says that it’s not worth it. I have pain pills in my bathroom and I know a handful of them would make all the problems go away, but I don’t take them. My mom lost two out of seven kids plus her husband and I don’t think she would take me dying well. I am not living for me […]
I don’t know about everyone else, but I love to sleep. It the best way to escape life, if only for a little while.
When I sleep, I have really vivid dreams. Some of them are horrible nightmares but others are good dreams.
The problem with dreaming is I wake up eventually. If I’ve had a nightmare, then I wake up panicky and scared, but I calm myself down eventually.
But if I’ve had a good dream, I wake up and realize that it was all a dream, that perfect reality was a dream. And life seems so unbearable. So disgusting. I realize just how empty I am. […]
i tried to hang myself when i was like 8 or 9 with a jump rope. i was 13 when i took like 8 different bottles of pills. both attempts didnt work, obviously, but i still have horrible nightmares of past experiences and some weird memories of abuse are coming back to me. i wonder if im going crazy and making stuff up (im 17)… i admit that i’d rather be alright and have had a life where NOTHING bad has happened and everything is perfect but im wondering if im not a psychological hypochondriac..the memories are so vivid though. i can remember feelings, […]