Ever since I was 12 I wanted a wife, kids, and to be a doctor.  It was the perfect life to me, to have all that happiness as soon as possible.  I’m with the girl of my dreams, the girl who can be the one.  She even use to say she wants all of that…with me.  Starting two months ago though she seems to be ignoring me and not talking to me like she use to.  The anniversary rituals seemed to have stopped.  I went to the hospital today and she was worried and was talking to me more than she has been.  It made […]
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Hospital Today
I stood outside the window as the wind and cold played its part in making me numb enough to watch him cheat. I had just gotten home after I had been in the hospital for 2 weeks, and had gone to visit him to see what project had kept him busy enough to only allow him the time to see his ill girlfriend once during her time in the hospital.
I heard her moaning as I approached the door, and naturally I had to see with my own eyes, so I peered into the window with the slit in the curtains.
It was her, a […]
I think i’ve finally had enough, I think i maybe think too much, I think this might be it for us….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
(Blow me one last kiss)
So Hi! :3
Lol. They wanted to take me back to hospital today.. And I finished all of my colouring pages. Then destroyed some with black crayons and random scribbles of what I think are meant to be words.
I keep thinking it’s my fault.. Just seeing her screen name is enough to start a breakdown. It’s physically impossible for me to have done that.
I don’t think I can take much more of this, And the fucking pretending is driving me insane. I can’t do that anymore, I’m going to break soon.
Well, As I always say.. I’m a broken toy. A little Teddy-bear, […]
I moreless want to write this post to encourage someone else! I’m still battleing suicidual feeling real bad and if that one guy would email me back and tell me he found a gun, id leave work to go put an end to it all… but honestly I’m tired of it all! I really want out! I kno there’s two sides of me speaking. All I kno is if I have another attack like I did the other night I will end up doing it! And really deep inside I just want a peace of mind and true happiness more than anything. So the day […]
I know, it’s probably strange seeing an 11 year old on here. But my mother recently died. My sister hates me and bullies me all the time. I’ve been depressed since November 2011 but no one ever notices. It may be bad if i cut my self but i have done it. I’ve been trying to stop but its hard. I am getting there though. My sister talks to me like i am crap. She acts like i don’t mean anything. But I do. Ever since my mother died it hasn’t been the same. I miss her. I talk to her. I have been bullied […]
I’m tired of livinq,I wanna qive,qive In Into an attemp.I hope I don’t fail.It suck’s cause I bearly met my new theropist and at first I thouqht he didn’t care but I really like him,It suck’s that I have to disapoint him.If I fail,I’m not qoinq back to the hospital!Today I woke up determinded to do It.I wanna jump In front of a car but then I gave It a lonq  thouqht,how Is It qonna be on the person?I feel like shit,why make that person feel like shit?I’m still practicinq starvinq for Incase If I run away.Who know’s when the next time I’m qonna have […]