Decided not. This site was an amazing find. Thank you, all of you, for being excellent. Tomorrow. Finally. Take my Seroquel, go for a walk along the river, and — oops! — “accidentally” slip and fall in and go through a weak spot in the ice, and I won’t be alert enough to fight it. They won’t get me ’til Spring thaw. And like hell I’m going to the emergency room to be violated again. No thanks.
So long, and thanks for all the fish.
I guess I don’t really know why I don’t have any friends, because I’ve told myself the same thing over and over again so that I believe that, instead of what’s probably true. I never tried to figure it out because it would be pointless, as I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I started posting here simply so that I could finally say what I needed to. I’ve always told myself I don’t want friends. I do. It hurts to admit it, but I do. I used to have friends, but for the past few months, I just stopped. I didn’t want my problems […]
I’m sure that people have played the game of Life, you know, with the board and the dice and shit. The board with such spaces as “get married,” or “pay day.” They should add a space called “suicide,” and if you land there you should smile and nod and leave gracefully. Sorry, sir. You’ve lost the game. Sorry, I say, try again some other day! Sorry, there is no feasible way out – at least not for awhile. Sorry, you get to sit there and watch the rest of us play. Sorry, you are a loser.
You’ve probably […]
…speak the same language.
But hola there.
And as a shy n’ paranoid beign i am i will hide some of the reasons that brought me here (if u don’t mind)
Today is a rainy day but there is no difference to me ’cause i always bring this grey cloud over me. In fact ,i choosed this nickname because the word ‘luck’ wasn’t a very sudden thing in my life. Not only this, but 8 more to come, one worse than the other.
Dunno anything, i just want to die an maybe get some ice cream : )
“Or are you just going to become a humble little butterfly”
It’s just me and little Leroy; always has
The only thing that’s right in hell is the ground
Chained, masked, neck to the boulder
Humble white death, utter-doom-child of all calamity
The insulin, the insulin
The saga in the year of the Horse, dark
Taken, under the ‘Blood-Moon’
But fate was already written
My little Leroy, your pure cosmic soul
Will you transfer through, our tears of ours lives
You are my forever, transfer the data
Leroy The Number One, I love you
Nobody knows our history, it was just you and me
Forever and the after, you will always […]
I have a specific day in mind to perform the last task. It’s perfect really, and essentially the closest day I can do it all on my own. 18th birthday is perfect, And although its 9 months away, I’m determined I’ll do it. The ups and downs I have don’t fool me into hope, cause ive experienced life and what I’ve felt is enough to make a decision. So from now until then my posts will be full of bs. Thank you
Look into my eyes,
What do you see?
Look into them hard,
Look at the real me.
Empty and dark,
Spirit is dead.
Feeling the numbness,
Inside my head.
Heart cold as steel,
Heart cold as ice,
Giving my love,
It paid the price.
The heart it beats on,
Keeps the body alive,
Demons inside me,
It’s where they thrive.
The struggle goes on,
Goes on each day.
The fight comes to an end.
In the coffin I lay.
I promise you all that i will be a good girl..
I will sacrifice everything…ice creams chocolates…i wont watch tv or buy fashionable dresses..i wont be rude…
I JUST DON’T WANT TO DIE YET THE PAIN IS KILLING ME FROM INSIDE..
PLEASE FORGIVE ME GOD, IF YOU ARE LISTENING TO ME, FOR EVERY SIN IF I HAVE DONE ANY..PLEASE TAKE AWAY MY PAIN AND GIVE ME MY DREAMS BACK..I DONT NEED ANYTHING JUST WANT TO LIVE MY DREAMS..MY PASSION IS MY DRUG…
GIVE ME A NEW LIFE..PLEASW GOD…PLEASE :'( :'( :'(
I stand looking at myself in the mirror and what do I see….?
One bloody mess.
I hate everything I see….
I seem…. so unreal to me
….I’m in utterly disbelief….
Hands bloody…arms bloody… face bloody….
the blade is my best friend and my lover.
We go together like ice and vodka..
I feel I’m in hell… I’m tormented in this shell..
I slice open, watching my flesh strip away…
While my mind goes into a relaxing place….. I feel good now… well almost… let me go a little deeper… almost there!…just a little deeper…now I’ve climax into one unemotional mess… now I hate myself…For […]
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