This is my first post. I’m  a 31 yo female, a cutter, overweight and ugly….I deal with the pain every day. My dad is getting on in years and he has been forgetting a lot lately, which makes me even more sad becuz I know that he has real reasons to be depressed and want to die, but he doesn’t. But maybe it’s cuz he forgot he wanted to. My pain is mostly from love.
In 2011 I met someone I fell in love with, hard, and I know he didn’t feel the same way. How could he, I’m me! But over all this time […]
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Oka’y, now shes my ex’s friend. She is also friends with my Ex’s girlfriend and I just need some feedback on our conversation
Me: Hey, Im bored
Her: Well, get a life
Me: I have a life, Im just bored right now
Her: Im sorry youre a loser
Wanna go to the movies with me sometime?
Me: LMAO WHAT
Her: Cant you read?
Me: No I just feel like your fucking with me so Im laughing
Her: Why would I do that?
Me: Because It sounds like you duh?
Her: So its a no then?
Me: What movie…LOL
Her: IDC what movie
Me: Cant we just […]
Alright im 19 years old. You guys on here think you’ve been threw stuff? My Bio dad abannded me when i was born. Another man Adopted me and called me his. Only for me to find out it really wasnt him who was my dad. Brother died of cancer. I pretty much raised him. I have attempted suicide many times and i believe that it has put me in an inbetween of this and the next life. I look around and everything seems darker. The whole world just angier.
When i began expiermenting with drugs i did many things. Ive done anywhere from pot/DMT/Spice/Coke and about […]
I’m not even afraid of dying. I think I’ve proven that much. No, I’m afraid of failing again. I can’t look everyone in the eyes while laying in a hospital bed again. Call me heartless, but idc what happens after I die. It’s the failing I can’t do again. It seems so easy to die. Every day theres stories on the news about someone who died quick and unexpectedly. Yet when I try, its slow and ineffective. It’s not fair. I’m no stranger to death. But he refuses to take me. I wish he’d take me. But all he does is sabatoge me. No firing […]
Depression, social anxiety, idk what else. I cut, I’m lost and hopeless, living on the thought that life amuses me a little.. killing myself would mean I don’t get to be “entertained” anymore. Entertained… more like watching a miserable world do it’s thing. I don’t even feel like me, I feel like someone outside of me, watching in. I don’t care to much anymore.. but I hate attention, I hide everything, that’s all I really care about anymore, is getting away. I’ve lost hope, I don’t know about my future, which everyone pressures me on that I should know.. I don’t know, I’m done trying […]
My mom is constantly telling me that i need to see a therapist and i keep on telling her u really should. I thought she had finally realized how i was feeling but then i find out that she wants me to see a therapist because she wants that girly girl that left her a long time ago,she hasn’t noticed a thing… She only wants the perfect daughter that she used to have. I may not be depressed and self-harm anymore but i still want to see one,i know im not completly out if the woods yet. My friends told me not to tell the […]