I try to sleep but i never can… All I ever do is sit up thinking constantly. I use to smoke bowls and do drugs to help but I’m trying to stay clean. I need to actually. But without drugs all i think about is hurting myself. When it will be my last day how it will all end. Does anyone know anyway to help with this shit? I mean I’m on meds but they don’t work at all. Someone anyone ideas please… I’m tired of wanting drugs and to hurt myself but I have nothing else.
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Don’t even try, Yorke says. Don’t get any big ideas, any silly dreams. Look at you. You’re a speck of dust in the cosmos, if that. Who do you think you are? To the universe, you’re just a bunch of noise, if that.
OK I GIVE. Everyone jumped on me about my dog, so I will stay alive until she dies. Should only be a few more years. I can’t stand the thought of someone else having her.
For a while I didn’t create an account on here and a lot of posts are just inspiring and resonate a lot.
I bookmarked a couple and thought about taking bits and pieces and making a collage with quotes.
Can anyone else suggest other ideas?
I just think it’s nice to be reminded it’s okay to feel the way you do and that you’re not alone.
Surprisingly the Seattle football team is putting me in good spirits. Knowing everyone there is having such a wonderful time cheering with friends and family distracts my mind from the darker ideas. I’m not sad tonight. Which is a good thing. It helps to read these posts and understand how others feel and live with what goes on inside them. Thank you for this site
I think i reached a point where i know and feel worthless to everyone around me and to myself. whats the point of life anyways? if there is something after death, heck i ve had enough. I would like to take that little voyage.
any ideas how to end this while sleep ?
Has anyone had any success faking being happy? If so, I want to hear your ideas…. PLEASE. Iwork at this job that I don’t like at all and I am so depressed that it is getting hard to get up each day. But, I MUST appear happy at work. Our company serves these rich people and you must be nicey-nice and kissy-butt all of the time. I MUST be cheerful, sunny and bright, no matter how terrible or tired I feel.
I know I’m walking around with this stupid, fake goddamn smile pasted on my face, but I risk losing my job if I do not. […]
These thoughts might be just temporary. They might not be. But I’m really mad. So what’s the point of living if I’m just doomed to be under my annoying ass parents for a very big chunk of my life that matters to me? Here’s the thing I have these really big ideas to become more and more independent from them but they won’t let me go through with them. They think they know better than me but they don’t. They think I have no idea what I’m talking about but that’s a load of bullshit. I’d rather take away my own life then be with […]
It’s suicide vs the survival instinct.
Both ideas and feelings generated from the same brain. So why would the brain want us to survive and die ? wheres the logic ?
a short example:
experiencing a full manic episode, you a hold a knife up to your heart, you’re convinced all you wanna do is jam that baby in there, it starts with a nice big confident swing but then just before impact your arm goes soft ? or your mind goes numb and nothing happens ?? And for what. What possible reason
Some kind of fucked up cosmic joke.
Hi 🙂
I must say, I think the thing I most truly, profoundly hate in this world is people judging every f(I can swear on this site right?) thing I decide on or do. There’s nothing that frightens me more.
It sometimes gets to the point where I hide feelings and thoughts, ideas and decisions. Why do people do that? I wouldn’t ever judge anyone based on their decisions without even knowing them. Everybody has their own reasons. Like me, right?
People just make me mad. Anybody feel the same?
Feeling fed up,
PURPLEPAIN
I’m going to eat 11 nurofen all i have :(.then I will hopefully fall in unconsues .before that I will that my eipen .this messes up the heart and makes blood vessals smaller .with the nurofen whitch says not to take if u have heart problems.i migth as well take some strong alcohol with that .finally when asleep I will hold a bag over my head with my thumb so when I fall asleep so choke to death . So who thinks this will work.i need to be certin cause my mom will notice the stuff gone. if anyone could give me any advice or […]
“This might be the heartache that don’t stop hurting, it just keeps working on me, it just keeps pickin’ on me.”
I’ve tried almost everything to make it go away. Smoking, drinking, sex, and shredding my wrists.. The most helpful thing has been cutting. Seeing the blood drip and roll down my body. It’s almost like I’m draining my body of the hurt. If I just bleed enough it’ll eventually go away forever.. at least that’s what I’m hoping. I’m at a dead end and I don’t know what else to do.. tell somebody? or keep shredding my body until I’m all gone? I’m running out […]
So I think about suicide. I have been thinking about it for years now.
My biggest problem is when someone lies to your face and tells you that its weird to think about suicide. To make a decision on if you do so or not is based on ideas, opinions, or thoughts about suicide.
So yes I do think about suicide everyday. Which isn’t entirely too bad of a thing. For one it led me to this site. To make a decision on not to kill oneself also requires some serious thought. Weighing different outcomes, and evaluating ones life is necessary.
I apologize if I am rambling, but […]
Hello Everyone , I would like to know if anyone has any ideas on where i may obtain barbiturates.? tuinal, ******** etc
                  Thankyou,   Ian
ive tried everything people have told me to do and i am getting no where my mom is still hitting me and she wont stop or minimize the amount and i just dont no wat else to do extept die because 1) if i dont kill myself then she will do it for me.2) i dont want to be alive and 3) i WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean im sure someone on here will agree with me ………….right
if u have a idea in wat i should do comment on this post and tell me so i guess i will talk to u guys on my comments.
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