So I think about suicide. I have been thinking about it for years now.
My biggest problem is when someone lies to your face and tells you that its weird to think about suicide. To make a decision on if you do so or not is based on ideas, opinions, or thoughts about suicide.
So yes I do think about suicide everyday. Which isn’t entirely too bad of a thing. For one it led me to this site. To make a decision on not to kill oneself also requires some serious thought. Weighing different outcomes, and evaluating ones life is necessary.
I apologize if I am rambling, but thanks for viewing regardless. I just need to re-organize my thoughts and ideas.
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I hereby grant you permission to daily speak your suicidal ideation. Now, shall we discuss specifics?
Yeah tell us, so we can show everyone!
Where to start. As a teenager I wanted to die everyday. I guess that is a side effect of living with someone who is terminally ill. When turned 18 I figured I had another chance to do something with my life. That’s when I made a do or die decision. I joined the military with the expectation to either gain the resources to do something with my life, or die in the process. The result of either seemed gratifying. Obviously I am still here and I am currently working towards achieving goals that I have set for myself. This all seems fine, but life is just wearing me down. I am still trying to convince myself to continue living. Being facing with the possibility homelessness, failing at accomplishing my goals, and letting down my family is overwhelming. Hell i’m on this site thanks to unsecured free WiFi.