Hi.I’m New Here And I’m Glad I Found This Site.I Can Relate To Almost Half The Posts I’ve Read Here.Dying Inside,Dead,Suicidal Attempts And Fantasies.During The Day,I’m ur Typical 20year Old Girl.Popular,Socialite,Pretty Slim,Bubbly.Heck I Make The Jokes Half The Time.But The Nights..The Nights Are The Worst.The Real Me Emerges.A Pretty,Empty Vessel,Disturbed Girl,So Broken,So Torn.I Used To Self Mutilate Becoz The Pain I Inflicted On The Outside Was Better Than The One I Felt Inside.Sometimes(all the time)I Just Wanna Sleep And Never Wake Up,I Dont Want To Do Anything Or See People.I Question Anyone That Claims To Love Me.Becoz I Love Myself.Infact,I Hate Myself.So Its Really Difficult […]
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Ive had a vedy fucked up two years.. i already prepare for death.. i sled off the road lastnight.. and for 5 seconds i just new i was going to hit a tree and die.. my point is.. i wasnt scared.. i was ready and hoping.. when i relised after hydroplaning at 80 miles an hour sideways then in to a large field.. it being dark i couldnt see anything.. then sliding at about 60 miles an hour into the grassy side median.. im very suprised i only had 3 flat tires.. i landed 3 feet from the tree sideline.. damn how i wish in […]
im not quite sure whats wrong with me anymore. i fall apart so easily on little things. i do not fear death at all but when someone makes a shrewd comment to me about my scars i completely shut down. why?
the other day when hurricane sandy came through, i was with my uncle and a couple of his friends at an atv park. well it was really windy and and the weather was bad. i had gone inside the camper and just 5 seconds of me going inside a tree fell on the camper literally missing me by inches. i almost had my life […]
Okay,here goes.
My names murron mackay,incase you hadn’t guessed by my username, and today I was searching on the internet about getting help on being suicidal, and I stumbled on this website. I had a look through and thought I would add my story. It’s nothing huge, infact compared to most of the stories on here, it’s like nothing. But anyway, in a nutshell, here is my story.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a family, a roof over my head and even a boyfriend, and i know what you’s are all thinking, ‘Selfish *****’ etc etc..But before you judge, please read this blog and hear me […]