In my delusions I somehow managed to convince myself that I’m perfect and there’s nothing wrong with me, again. Yeah I’m a narcissist… my mother isn’t. I’m the problem. I made my mother cry today. It’s not the first time. We got into an argument and it didn’t get very heated but then again that might be another one of my delusions. I just told her I didn’t like her. I don’t have any reason to, but I also don’t have any reason not to. I guess it’s because she is really trying hard to get to know me and actually help me. I’m really […]
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Internal Monologue
I feel like I’m suffocating, trapped inside my own head. I struggle to go through the day to motions of uni and work because I’m convinced this is my last year of living. I’m petrified, knowing that I’ll never get married or have a family or even do a single thing with this degree I’ve spent so much time and energy obtaining. It’s not that I’m planning on actively taking my own life, just that I’m convinced I’m not long for this world. My fear has become so bad that everytime I drive my car I hope I’m going to crash, just so it can […]