I feel I don’t exist and don’t have anyone to talk or to relate to. I feel invisible to the world. The only time people do notice me, is when out in public and I’m going thru my anxiety attacks. Yeah.. they notice alright. They either laugh, call me crazy, or walk away from me if they near by. It’s so embarrassing! I don’t know what brings them on, that’s why I try to stay self medicated when I go out. I’ve tried medicine for all of my disorders or illnesses, including the Anxiety, but they either make me feel worse or I can’t function […]
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As I talked about in my earlier post, last week I had my audition for the musical. Well yesterday morning I went to my school, despite not having to, and found out which role I got. I didn’t get a lead role again this year… I’m an ancestor. The only good thing is there are two types of ancestors, one with names and a group without. I’m lucky enough to have a name but… I’m just so upset that I won’t be able to do the meet and greet this year. Not once was I able to have a lead role. Not once will I […]
I’ve felt this way for all of my life up until now. I don’t necessarily think this is bad; I realize it’s simply my nature to feel this way, and no matter what I do, I am always going to feel somewhat excluded. Nevertheless, this feeling is also something that can backfire if it goes completely unchecked and is combined with outer and/or inner negativity.
And that is exactly what has happened to me.
I’ve wasted my life on nothing. I pretty much have nothing and am nothing nowadays. I’ve de-evolved greatly; there really is nothing now that positively defines me. I just…am; I’m just here, taking […]
I am invisible. Always. What’s ironic is when I was younger I thought it would be great to be. Now I am. I get forgotten when I’m in the same room. Waiters and waitresses have forgotten me. I regularly get asked when or how I got there. I wonder how many would notice did I simply never showed up again.
Its just little, old, invisible me trying to find out what I’m doing here…. -.-‘
written by InvisibleGirl
I don’t really know what I’m doing here… Â Am I just seeking ways to escape reality? Â Or am I just trying to find someone who will listen? Â Maybe both, I don’t know. Â But what I do know is that I’m tired of being invisible to people. Â My main issue is I’m a passive aggressive type of person, so I won’t fight back if someone picks on or bullies me. Â Which is also an issue because, since I’m passive aggressive people like to pick on me. Â I’ve been abandoned by my friends so many times that its hard for me to get close to people and […]
The lines in my hands
tell you their wisdom
while the tears in my eyes
tell you I’ve cried
the things they’ve done
and what they’ve seen
haunt me by day and night
While fireflies go across the sky
My regrets and mistakes crowd in
choking me and making me disappear
beneath their heaving darkness
A bloody cross
is all I see
condemning me to silence
for eternity
Without a voice
without a word
I become invisible
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