My role in the play and life

As I talked about in my earlier post, last week I had my audition for the musical.  Well yesterday morning I went to my school, despite not having to, and found out which role I got.  I didn’t get a lead role again this year…  I’m an ancestor.  The only good thing is there are two types of ancestors, one with names and a group without.  I’m lucky enough to have a name but…  I’m just so upset that I won’t be able to do the meet and greet this year.  Not once was I able to have a lead role.  Not once will I be able to stand out or have people crowd around me to say I did a good job.  I’ll just be someone in the background who people barely notice, just like I am everyday.  No one notices me or my emotions, everyone just continues to walk by as if I’m not even there.  But what can I say, I’m used to it.  Its the way things have always been and I guess always will be.  I’m just worthless, invisible me.