It sucks seeing ppl around you so happy. Its killing me. My bestfriend just had her second baby. She has a beautiful family. And i got depression and newly found bpd. I keep saying i want to get help. I need help. Help realizing that its okay that life sucks..but do i really want to be just okay?? No i dont. I want something that i can never have and im stupid for putting myself through shit when theres a way out. I dont want to fight anymore. All i do is drink till i pass out. I dont eat barely sleep. Im sick. I […]
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its killing me
i need to post things
but i cant
one of my friends
they check on me
i don’t know how regularly
i don’t know when
but because of that
i can’t post certain things
and its killing me
because im bottling my feelings
maybe its good
to do this
to bottle them up
how should i know
but i need to post things
but i cant
and now what
should i do?
Long story – Short(Believe me, I tried):
I was 17 last year making my brother 23. He started seeing one my absolute best friends until she decided to start dating someone who could be around more, his work kept him out of town.
He told me that it really hurt him and we bonded over it… or so I thought. I had a complete falling out with one of my oldest friends and he decided to take her virginity as a way to get back at my best friend. He’s not very mature for his age – I know, and hes been told by many, including my […]