Fear is that feeling you get  that makes you feel helpless, your heart flutters and gasps, well your mind screams to run. Many think of fear as an external cause, where something outside of your self scares you. Little do people know that fear is internal, caused by the feeling of lack of power, you feel weak and powerless. your mind will play tricks on you telling you that you are weak, powerless, even worthless. The mind with fear slowly ether crumples under the strain or stands up to the lies and falsehoods become strong, powerful. One may think you can hide from it or […]
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Joshua
I got out of bed earlier, made and poured myself a hot cup of tea.
As I stirred my tea gently and slowly, my mind began to percieve it as a pattern..sort of a beat.
Swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..
Words began to play like a song in my head..in a really soft high-pitched voice
Sharp knives and blood
Like sugar and tea
Sweetly come together to comfort me
End the suffering now
turn out the lights
Death is not so bad
Take your life
Take your life
Take your life
Take your worthless life
This was replayed twice until I was jolted out of the lullaby by the sound my phone […]
Dear Josh,
I miss you. I cant believe we’ve gone this long without talking and you live around the corner from me and we both go to the same college. Why did things have to end up so badly? We were supposed to grow up and go to college together and live together remember? You were my best friend for three years when you lived across the street from me. You couldnt say Rain without Josh and you couldnt say Josh without Rain. Always came to my boxing matches..even watched me spar. Went to highschool together. You were even my first kiss… You told me […]