Sirens in my tea

I got out of bed earlier, made and poured myself a hot cup of tea.
As I stirred my tea gently and slowly, my mind began to percieve it as a pattern..sort of a beat.
Swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..
Words began to play like a song in my head..in a really soft high-pitched voice

Sharp knives and blood
Like sugar and tea
Sweetly come together to comfort me
End the suffering now
turn out the lights
Death is not so bad
Take your life
Take your life
Take your life
Take your worthless life

This was replayed twice until I was jolted out of the lullaby by the sound my phone makes when i recieve a text message.

Joshua: “I miss you..where are you?”
Joshua: “Rain..answer me”

I think it’s funny. My mind still has not processed that song or why i heard it..or where the lyrics came from.