Dear Joshua

Dear Josh,
I miss you. I cant believe we’ve gone this long without talking and you live around the corner from me and we both go to the same college. Why did things have to end up so badly? We were supposed to grow up and go to college together and live together remember? You were my best friend for three years when you lived across the street from me. You couldnt say Rain without Josh and you couldnt say Josh without Rain. Always came to my boxing matches..even watched me spar. Went to highschool together. You were even my first kiss… You told me we would always be together and i believe you cause no one ever treated me like you did. When you got into fights at school, i was the first that everyone told. We were there for eachother. I remember what was about to be my second kiss with you and you had me pinned against a wall and you were slowly getting closer and your brother came in and called me names..because im not white. He didnt want me with you even though your brothers and I were always close…they wanted you to love and marry a white girl..not me..not a half puerto rican, half black girl. And now you have a girlfriend..i dont want to be your girlfriend i just want the friend i had back. I want you back. When I saw you last November I remember the hug you gave me and i remember how long we talked under the stars and i remember how you looked back at me over your shoulder when you walked away with your girlfriend. You said we’d be together forever Josh, that we’d be friends always. Now I need you more that ever and you arent here. My life was made to have you in it..and I know you miss me because I can feel you staring at the moon the same time I do. I remember the night you told me that whenever we arent together that we’d stare at the moon and know that we’re thinking about eachother…sometimes i dont see the moon anymore though..it scares me. I need you Josh. Remember your nickname for me?
Love, Rain(TheAliciaTreatment)