So i am in love. Â I must admit i never thought it will hit me so suddenly but i guess that it’s true when they say: ‘when you least expect it’
The sweetest person i have ever met. I am going to sound as a hopeless romantic but his kisses make me dizzy which is entirely true i can barely walk after he touches me. Â So when everything should fit in its place my awkward paranoia jumps out of nowhere. I have never been really close to somebody like this and i am constatly thinking about bad things. I have this idea that something bad […]
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im here coz i dont want anybody that i know to know what im going through
by douleur
written by douleur
im in a position where i need that pain deep in me to end. and i dont know how..the only way that im aware of is to end everything. im in a a position where many girls have been. it may even sound common and uninteresting to many. i have lost the love of my life..the love that every minute of my life in the last 3 years have revolved. it may sound common but the pain of every person is huge..its unbearable..and its important to them. my world came crashing down. after all these years, i seem insignificant and worthless to the love of […]
I am on seaside with my family.Only my mom saw my cuts on legs and arms but she didnt tell father,i told her not to.Because i promised her that i stopped self harm.And i did stop but the will is still here.I ignore it.I have bf ,and fisrt time in life i think love does exist.I love him,he loves me,our love is strong,he keeps me alive,he is giving me reason to live .He kisses scars on my skin,he try really hard to help me.
But today i snapped.I just broke.I run to the sea ,jump in in,and tried to drown myself .Nobody was watching,i could do […]
This Girl That I Love That Is MY Girlfriend cares about another guy and not me i love her so much im so bliend But i still love her she hurts me cuz she kisses the cheek of another guy and kisses him i love S and it hurts me knowing she just playing with me
This is my first post. I’m  a 31 yo female, a cutter, overweight and ugly….I deal with the pain every day. My dad is getting on in years and he has been forgetting a lot lately, which makes me even more sad becuz I know that he has real reasons to be depressed and want to die, but he doesn’t. But maybe it’s cuz he forgot he wanted to. My pain is mostly from love.
In 2011 I met someone I fell in love with, hard, and I know he didn’t feel the same way. How could he, I’m me! But over all this time […]
My boyfriend broke up with me a couple weeks ago, and I feel like crap.
Everyday I see him around, he’s flirting with another girl.  It hurts so much
to know he has already moved on and I still haven’t. I feel like my heart
has been ripped in half. Everyone keeps telling me to move on, that he’s not
worth it. But every piece of advice they give me I start missing him even more.
I stopped eating like I used to. I eat at least one meal a day sometimes I don’t
eat at all. I can’t […]
So I don’t know why after a year I’m questioning such a “perfect” relationship, but I am. I’ve gone out with my current boyfriend since eighth grade and its been amazing. No arguements. No problems. Nothing wrong. It’s been all smiles, laughter, kisses, hugs,and now that I think of it…its been mainly revolving on our intimatcy. So I think that’s an issue. It’s a huge issue but at the same time I think its ok since were best friends and were “in love’ with one another. But could someone just give me their opinion. I’m not going to break up with my boyfriend since we […]
About a month ago, I decided to drink with some friends. I ended up drinking more than I thought and the next thing I knew, I was at a park. I didn’t know how I got there or who was with me at the time, I was just out of it. I was scared. Confused. I had no clue what happened. While I was there, I was in and out of knowing my surroundings and what was happening. I remember my best friend right by me helping me out and trying to figure out what to do. I remember trying to call someone but ending […]
Not too much to say except, I came a long way but never really reached that mountain top. It’s a long way down the hill now and all my dreams lay dead below.
I’ve never really met anyone like me. I feel trapped in my own head. I can be so superficial, really, to be honest. And I am ashamed of it. I don’t know if  there could have ever been any other way for me, but I remember it all started by trying to scape the pain I was feeling. Movies kept me alive in a far away land where beautiful girls were loved for […]
I don’t particularly like this. Idk. It’s a little weird for me. It’s meant to be more of a story then a poem. I think it’s a bit shallow and self-involved. Tell me what you think.
Once upon a time there was a girl
There were many girls, but this girl had a head full of words
There were many words, but these words were full of her sadness
This girl was full of sad stories made of sad words
Once upon a time she was strong
She was full of strength, because she was strong to fight the pain
She was full of pain, a pain […]
I want a way out, simply put, no sugar coating it.
I have an average life, I know there are people worse off, call me selfish, I just want to end it all.
I am 17, 18 in October.
I hate the thoughts if waking up in the morning on weekends. I put on the fake show, pretending to be the happy popular girl in school. (Yeah call me big headed I’ve been called worse 🙂 )
I have above average grades, Honestly never opened a book in my life, pulled three A’s in Higher maths English and ordinary Irish, did transition year, passed it […]
I will continue facing life with pain, heartbreaks and of course the pressure of society. Im falling apart but i would rather feel pain then dealth because I have the power to decide. Imiss the smiles and kisses you gave me but I face the prints on my neck and face just to know at the end you love me.
I am back people, I just got out of the hospital. And now I am back, i got 42 hugs, 5 kisses, and 2 punches. People were very happy to see me, many people were. And it confuses me, i feel like the biggest peice of shit, i feel like no one cares, but the thing is, EVERYONE seems to care about me. Out of the 400 people, 300-350 missed me…
It wont be easy 2 fully finish this
Or 2 get rid of all my thoughts of my addictions.
I want 2 be done and be free.
I want 2 be happy and i will be.
i am strong and beautiful and will get threw this
now with his help and kisses and comfort
i am 1 step closer 2 being done.
Its a new year and i will start of clean……