this may seem really weird, but im actually really excited to die. im counting down the seconds until i will have gone 10 days with out food or water. the only thing that i am kind of feeling iffy about is the fact that im goin to die fat. that really pisses me off big time. i dont know why, but i just really really want to die, it has become a lust, a desire, and an obsession.
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my head is pounding, my vision is blurring, and my thoughts are skewed, i am on hour 20 of my fast, boycotting water and food. i read that old people restrict themselves of food and water, as a way of suicide, and the process often lasts around 5-10 days, so i guess that is how long i have left. i am grateful for this kind of suicide because my family and friends might not be aware that my death was volentary, hopefully the will see it as a crude accident, and feel no responsibility. fingers crossed.