S – slowly breathing in and out
A – about ready to scream and shout
V – vanishing faces focused on life
A – already giving up on that strife
N – not enough fight left in my body
N – never wanted my hands this bloody
A – alright I’ve had enough tears
H – how has tis much time past, so many years
C – clouds cover the sky
O – only I want to die
N – needed one last person to care
S – sorry it was only a dare
T – time has flown by
A – and all I can […]
(Blow me one last kiss)
So Hi! :3
Lol. They wanted to take me back to hospital today.. And I finished all of my colouring pages. Then destroyed some with black crayons and random scribbles of what I think are meant to be words.
I keep thinking it’s my fault.. Just seeing her screen name is enough to start a breakdown. It’s physically impossible for me to have done that.
I don’t think I can take much more of this, And the fucking pretending is driving me insane. I can’t do that anymore, I’m going to break soon.
Well, As I always say.. I’m a broken toy. A little Teddy-bear, […]
My blood litters the bathroom floor;
Another fight with you,
Your up against the door,
Begging me not to do it,
Dont go away, you say,
Please stay.
I dont want to leave but I have to,
If I stay, one of us is sure to get hurt;
I hate seeing pain in your beautiful brown eyes,
So therefore I know it is me that has to die.
I’m leaving out the front door!
Your sitting on the couch,
Hoping for one last kiss,
But I know that if I give in now,
I wont be able to go,
You say ‘I love you babe’.
As one tear slowly runs down my face,
You say that we’ll get through this;
We alway do!
I love you babe!
I love you […]
I have been suicidal for probably the better part of 5 years and looking back at my life and where I am now I always ask myself “why didn’t I just do it then?” Nothing ever improves, I’m too much of a pathetic, fuck up to ever improve it. I realize a few people here will still say I have hope, but realistically take a look at my current life and take your mindset off of a suicide relief/help site mentality for a second. If any person in real life read what I am about to describe below they would most likely agree that there […]
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