Being at home became far too painful. It’s an excruciating thing to watch the home life the brought you up for sixteen years, that was your safe place – rot away in front of your very own eyes. And I did what I’m best at – I pushed it away. I didn’t let it defeat me, I refused to let it drag me down.
I would wake at 5 AM just to get some peace from the chaos. I would leave my house for school at 5:30 AM and would walk – along the edge of the cliffs, along the beach for hours on the […]
I’m not really feeling like smiling right now, honestly. Â But I’ve heard that writing positive poetry makes you feel positive. Â So I’ll give it a whirl.
Here’s my smile to brighten your day
And light the dark routes along the way
Through the winding road that’s life
Filled with anger, resentment, and strife
Hard is the brick beneath our feet
Harsh are the people upon this street
Who smile with poisoned lips and grin
A friend outside, a foe within
But not all who walk this winding way
Wish to harm or lead astray
By your side I walk as well
A fellow traveler through this hell
Lifting my smile as a tiny light
Why do older people consider themselves wiser and smarter?
They really think that experience defines someone.They say things like : “Poor you! you’re so young.You don’t know what life is.”.It’s really annoying.I’m really sure one can find answers about life through many ways.I didn’t fall in love, I didn’t get married, I didn’t get my own house, I didn’t have sex, I didn’t get my own driver license, I’m not a father or grandfather, I didn’t have a career, I didn’t found true happiness.So what? think I’m upset because I didn’t do everything or good part of the things I could have done or still […]
I am so bloody happy. Life is beautiful.
I haven’t been on here for quite some time, and I’m here now to see if I can make friends, chat about philosophy, and help out a little.
Anyway, I thought a joyful post would be a be something different here.
Have a splendid day/night, darlings!
I want to start off with a simple word that does not mean a lot in today’s world and that is “sorry” I am sorry I have let you down. I am sorry I have walked all over you. There is nobody/nothing to blame it is my fault and I accept that. More people than I could count have tried to help me and all I have done is spat in their faces. As I look around I see everybody is moving on. I just stay on this path of nothing. I have given effort to make the right changes but all for nothing because […]
My name is Abhishek, I’m 23 years old. My parents are abusing me everyday and everytime. No matter how much I try to avoid them, they just find a way to put me down. They want me to die. I haven’t done anything wrong, I’m just a guy who helps others and this is what I got for my goodness. I had a girlfriend but I have to leave her because of my parents. I’m lonely and I have nobody to share my pain. I want to cry but I stop myself thinking that I must become stronger in order to survive. But now I […]
Positive attitude, hope, doing things, man of action…etc all these are boring and it is for looser.
Just experience nihilism, existentialism, Efilism, Antinatalism  these are all so interesting we fell in love with them and ready to give our life for these.
First case is for mentally underdeveloped people.
Therefore start asking yourself questions  ” what is the purpose of human life, is there any meaning at all?, does the all struggle we undergo- is it worth at all? “
Ever wish that one day something would happen. Something bad. Like a car crash, being murdered, a heart attack anything that would kill you. So you yourself wouldnt have to commit the deed of killing yourself. Sometimes i just want to be gone i just want to quit life and be for ever at rest. I really dont know if im cut of for this “life” thing. Sometimes i just wish…
Hi, this is all very weird and to be honest I’m not sure how I ended up here whilst searching endlessly through the web with no specific aim…. but this place is about telling your story and the end to your story and so be it…hell what do I have to loseÂ
Lately I see nothing worth seeing in my life, I see bleakness, I see an effort for nothing, and effort being used tirelessely. I have tried, I know I have and that is what makes things all the harder, after having given all I have..and had in me to try and make this gift […]
I remember my days of old, gloomy and dismal skies were my lot.
Broken, confused and distraught. When would I start enjoying life once again?
Absent friends and a flustered mentality, as days went on, so was my happiness gone.
I cannot grow old on this accursed lot of loneliness, nothingness and despair. Could I
rise from the rubble, shall I dream, do i dare? This is how life was back then. We are the
creator of our roads, navigators of our souls, elevating us towards our goals.
It is time to take this dream and make it a reality.
Drinking an crying drinking and crying. filling up the empty bottle with tears so i can just pour it all over my psychiatrists nice rug tomorrow and say “Thats how i feel” but he wouldn’t get it.
You know the worst and maybe greatest feeling i’ve discovered in this amazing life, is the feeling you get when you realise you gotta take control of your own death. That strong burning sensation you get on the wrist’s that trickling blood feeling behind the eyes, so much passion and euphoria. which sadly is designed to be short lived, for reasons we all know.
Sorry I’m in a mood. 70% […]
So I just experienced the worst part of my day. Waking up. It’s 1pm and i just woke up. I was dreaming. My favorite pass time.
I honestly don’t enjoy anything else in life. Dreaming is an escape from life…from the depression. I can’t seem to find joy in anything else. I stopped taking my depression medication. I honestly didn’t see any difference.
whaterver…
Hello I’m 25yrs young I like that word better I’ve felt this way for awhile now I attempted suicide once already and died for about 5 seconds, long enough to hear the heart monitor flatline and feel life slip away, when I was a kid I had believed in finding something to believe in or hold onto, when I was younger I would look into the mirror and this feeling of sadness ignite in my heart I’d stare through the tears and tell myself it’ll change it’ll go away I used to wake up at night and cry until I fell asleep again sometimes my […]
I feel like, i’m the only one that feels like he’s being tested.
I feel like, this world is so absurdly fucked up, how could this be the real thing?
How can we expect to ever live in TRUE peace and harmony, if this world is a result of humans putting their heads together?
How can this world/life/dimension or whatever, be possibly real?
I’m no religious fella, or floaty supernatural type, Â but if this is it then i really, really hope there’s life after death.
Because how can a person that has “woken up” freely waddle carelessly through all these working slaves we see as people?
I’m not sure if i’m […]
I’ve read that 2/3 of all people who’ve committed suffered from mental illness, but what about the other 1/3 who didn’t? And I’m not counting the terminally ill — to me, that’s a no-brainer.  Are there rational reasons for deciding to end one’s life?
I see people constantly answer in the negative on other forums, but I can’t see how this can be an objective viewpoint. Â Everyone says ‘there is always hope’ or — my favorite brainless platitude – Â ‘suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.’ Â I have a feeling that people who say that haven’t had a whole lot of serious problems — and […]
The Suicide Spa- Check in if you wanna check out!
Does suicide really have to be this disgusting horrible action? Why is it so wrong to want to end your life on your own terms?
The thought of a 27 year old taking their own life is so “sad” and “unfortunate” yet a 95 year old dying ALONE, sick, and decrepit is just a normal everyday thing?
Death is the same no matter how you look at it. You “exist” then you don’t “exist” The end.
Why can’t society just admit that “life” for most of us is not that wonderful. I don’t want to watch myself grow old. […]
I had managed to carve out a nice life. I was happy, we were happy. Sitting on the couch smoking a bowl, laughing at silly things on T.V.
I lost him, my best friend, my brother, my partner in crime, my husband boo. It seemed like we beat the odds, you know? Finding each other. The job I had was great. We took long weekend trips to random places just because it sounded fun.
Being anywhere with him was fun.
The thought of you hurts because you are not here, nor would I want you to be… what I am now is not what I was.
Life moves along […]
this is me. ive changed so much learned so much. been through so much. ive tried more suicide attempts than i can actually count. everyone goes through shit. everyone feels like theres nothing left in life. but thats okay. everyone is stronger than they think. and thats why ive been on this site for 2 years, come so close to death a few times. but maybe im still here for a reason? were still here for a reason. sadly, life’s complications push you down, […]
i am not going to argue with anyone but all i am saying is. its kinda hard to be suicidal when you ve got life from the fist class
I have now concluded the first chapter of my short, indecisive life. The gates to all the winding paths, that had once been closed off to me, have been destroyed and now just their ruins remain isolated in my memory.
Only my body has the power and strength to take me where I am destined to travel. My mind is forbidden to make any more choices. I will not let myself depend on anything but the simplicities of life and the natural beauty of the untouched and untainted wonders.
I now walk whatever path I happen to find myself on, without any pretentious guidance and […]