Tonight was interesting. I found out my mom had been married before, in college. And that my father was a complete pot head. And so was every other man my mom had dated before. And that my uncle was a very popular weed dealer in southern Arkansas. My cousin doesn’t know, but my uncle had been married before to a total ***** and he doesn’t want Natalie to know. I really don’t like secrets much less keeping them. I wish my mom hadn’t told me that because I will probably end up fucking shit up again. Sad night. Its actually pretty funny I wasn’t invited […]
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Atelophobia: the fear of imperfection, of not being good enough.
Today was great so why do I still feel like a worthless piece of shit? I worry more and more about weather or not I am going to kill myself. I no longer have a happy place to take me away from myself for a while. I feel it is almost necessary now to do it sense everyone is expecting me to. But the secret is I don’t want to die, I want to be happy. I want to wake up in the mornings with a smile and for the voice in my head to point […]
Many human lives are clueless, at end of life “what you did with 100 years” finds no answer
Most of things on earth (god, rules, ethics, philosophy, technology) are developed by few confident, intelligent, strong humans
remaining all species really don’t have any clue on what the shit they living for
1. Not enough money for live the way we want
2. Even if keep accumulating the money with job doing, it takes a life to make reasonable amount of money.
3. Any how we die, why the shit we should undergo lots of pain to continue doing what we are.
No regrets… just lessons. No worries… just acceptance. No expectations… just gratitude. Life is too short…
this is my first post here I dont even know why im trying its stupid all I want is to die ive tried overdosing and cutting but I just ended up in hospital and since ive been on these new pills all ive done is make things worse I ruined 3 friendships and my relationship I messed up
why am I here…I JUST WANT TO DIE and end this hell thay is my messed up life
I’m so tired of this life. I’ve never felt comfortable in any situation and I seemingly can’t make anything work. I never feel like a normal person, never have. Even if by some miracle things are good, I find a way to destroy it just by being my uncomfortable self. I’ve done this so many times that now I’m just too tired to try.
I haven’t worked in more time than I’d like to admit. I’m 35, will be 36 at the end of the month, and I still rely on someone else to support me because I just can’t bring myself to face another rejection. […]
Isn’t it fun when you see someone you used to know, get a glimpse of how successful and fruitful their life has been, and meanwhile the only thing you can hope to do is die.
Because you’re such a fucking failure and your life is nonexistent, all you can hope to do is die.
Some spark of the old competition flares up in you, but it’s silly because you fail so hard at life.
You want to be happy, don’t you?…do you?…do I?…perhaps…even then…(Questions for members)
by KIRA
written by KIRA
What if you had a perfect life?.I mean, what if you had the life you want?
Have you ever imagined your little perfect world?.You probably did.
What if you were happy?.I mean, most of the members (including myself) are always complaining about how bad their lives are, would you be able to manage a happy life?
Have you ever thought that unhappiness may suit you better than happiness?
You could have a happy life and feel like a wretch, happiness could drive you mad.
What if you were happy…and then, one day, you start thinking: Is this what I wanted so badly? doesn’t seem too […]
I never knew any good. abuse from birth. Physically, menilly, sexually, and verbally. Living in poverty getting fucked by my dad and abused by my mom. Than my brother too. No love and no support. No friends no family. And the foster care system was no differnt. Abusse, neglect, and being used. I ran away at 12 and started prostituting to support myself. I wanted to make something for myself, to become something. I have been through things you couldn’t amagen. Things that should have killed me. But I’m hear and suffer every minuet of every day. I contiplate subside constantly. What do I […]
I would tell it:
return 0;
Barring that, break out of the very long finite loop called life. It’s taking up too many resources, and we need to kill it.
A real successful life is something like stevejobs, elonmusk, obama, billgates…
Most of human beings are unaware that they are unsuccessful
Even if they continue to live in the way they are now, probability of getting real success is zero
I really don’t know what driving them to live
stupid humans!!
Every night I cry because of the disappointment I cause. The burden I put on others, the loathing I direct at myself, It only leads to a life of sadness and despair. I’ve made my brother a monster, I made my father believe that I am just another mistake, and worst of all, I made my own mother cry because of my failures, and she believes it’s her fault, when it’s really my own mistake. When they ask for help, I don’t even have the energy to respond. And now I believe that I can never fix it, so I believe suicide is the only […]
They say it’s a safe haven.That you won’t have to worry. You can always talk to someone. They are so wrong. Because there really is no place to be safe. But this place is the worst. You will be worried for years. Until you leave this place for good. But for now you have to go there each day and then go home scared for the next. People don’t listen here. They take power of your fear. They can completely ruin your life. You can’t escape it. Everyone goes. It’s a life sentence. Here is your hell. Where your life can be destroyed. If I […]
Hi, it’s really hard to bring myself to write this, but I need help. Every time I feel really down or thoughts that I might be depressed come to mind I just ignore it. I don’t really have it, yeah, it will go away. And it does, for about 5 minutes.
And I just feel so weak. I used to think that I was invincible when I was a child, everything was possible. But now, I don’t even have a goal in life. I feel empty on the inside.
I already did everything I wanted to do in life, I think it’s time.
I used […]
Who really has a good enough reason to commit suicide? Is one reason more acceptable than another? What if:
*your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife left you?
*you’re sad, depressed, or have some other mental illness?
*you feel trapped in a hopeless situation?
*you have a terminal illness? (although life itself is a terminal condition. You start dying the moment you’re born).
*you had bad coffee this morning?
Are any of these reasons more valid or “better” than any others? If someone you knew was in the exact same position that you’re in, would you suggest that they end their life?
I think that people have a tendency to get hung up on “reasons why”. What seems […]
So hard to pick yourself back up out of the darkness when your depressed.  It is about the hardest thing to do.  When you have moved even farther passed that to the point you realize that life will never change things will always  be the way they are and have been it feels even harder, when you have no  hope  because u realize things will always be the same.
Its very unfair that people can do things that may permantly mess up your mind and never get punished for it. Â They do real harm to your mind an walk away never understanding the damage […]
There was this NICE and sweet female i used to know, back when i was in my early twenties, that COMMITTED SUICIDE!
Gosh! I was truly devastated when i was told that she had decided to hang herself in the bathroom of their house!
I hadn’t known her for very long but we had become close over time, due to the mere fact that we both felt some sense of EMOTIONAL CONNECTION towards each other!( NOT sexual because am a straight female)!
I think it was also the fact that we were in the same youth group at the time (back when i was RELIGIOUS and believed in […]
So you have that one person, your other half. He/she wants to see you do good and stay positive . And you just feel like you cant look up to there expectations . It hurts, and it hurts even more that you can’t be honest with them because you dont want them to know how you really feel. Im so very good with keeping my emotions bottled up. Because once they are out there is no ceiling it back up. Honestly can get you only so far in life..
Why don’t people have the right to commit suicide? As soon as a person says that they are going to kill themselves all of their rights get taken away from them. It is their life and their body why can’t they kill them selves if they so wish? People have the right to abortion, that is also dealing with life and death. Generally people who kill themselves have been dealing with depression for years, wouldn’t it be easier for them to just kill them self? Who is to say it will get better?