I have friends . Family ect . I had a rough child hood but it made me the strong person I am today . I can handle abuse , problems, conflict . Or at least on the surface . I smoke about an eigth a day of weed to mello out and drink when I can’t smoke . I use to use other drugs till I realized I was only letting “them” win by making myself look like the dirtbag they made me sound like . So I stick to my pot and alcohol although I have a struggle everyday. I feel like I dot […]
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Looking For Love
I am going all out here, ive tryed 3 times to end my life, yet the method didnt work… err and a year ago i bought a gun, and go figure a week later somebody stole it, everytime i try to kill myself, somthing tryes to stop me..but sorry, god cant stop my suicide abymore, i am departing very soon, i have new methods, im just wainting on funds… i cant wait to die, i have my arrangements made already the only problem is where do i do it, my house,hotel,or what? In the mean time im on a sex co pade..lol all i […]
Where to begin, so im not bring god into this, but he has fucked me good, ok so i wasnt even looking for love and this person comes into my life, we both fall for eacho ther and now
I’m not sure if I don’t want to kill myself because I finally have a better life, for right now, or if I’m just to numb to feel sorry for myself.
For my art class I had to paint something with emotion… It took me about two days to think of something to paint since I’m almost completely emotionless.
In every painting I have it has a heart somewhere incorporated in it. I’m not sure why but I always paint hearts. I guess it’s because I’m always looking for love. I don’t know, I just always feel empty, like I’m missing something. I’ve never had this feeling before, not […]