Sigh. I get better then when I fall it’s worse than the previous worse of before if that makes any sense at all. My life is declining at a rapid rate, and I’m losing grip on myself, I know I’m going to slip very soon. My whole life, I’ve been helping other people, basically living for other people and that’s basically made me crack until now where I’ve crumbled. People expect me to be a certain way, shape me a way I can’t be shaped, and make me something I don’t want to be. I’m suppose to be perfection in an imperfect world and boy […]
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Losing Grip
Today is already worse than any others. I can’t bring a smile to my face, I don’t want to… No motivation, no will. Today I finally told him the problem I’ve been dealing with for a long time now… I think it hurt him 🙁 but I knew he couldn’t understand… Hes supposed to make me the happiest person and the world and now he feels like he’s not doing everything he could but it’s not him, he’s not why I’m like this. It’s me, I’m the one doing this to myself, I feel like I’m losing grip. I’m trapped in my own hell, I […]