it hurts it burns deep in my core my heart beats for her my life depends on her. She destroys me but she also makes me im in love with the stress,the pain the lust but most imporantly im use to her that i cant leave because there might not be nobody else like her. Almost 3 years and i still love you but i also grew hate but for some reason i smile when i say that and iknow you will always smile when you hear that. I cant change it even though i wish i.could but sometimes i like it because this […]
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Long story short… I heard Travis’s voice on the phone just a few minutes ago… I’ve only heard his voice in my dreams… I feel like I am dreaming… I still love the sound of his voice<3
I think i will get Him Finding Nemo on Bluray, Fruit Gum, Gushers, Cross Necklace and all of those other little things i know you like to get.
I can write you letter.. like the one you wrote me..
I will mail it all to your house so you can see where i still stand.
Ill write out little inside jokes.. the secret things we knew about one another.. <3 😉
I wouldnt sign my name.. just hope that you got it and you knew who it was from..
and maybe you would even call to say thanks..
While I am reminiscing on the memories that slowly but sweetly tortures my heart.
With all the thoughts running through my head.
Was there something that could be changed?
And somehow make all the pain that was created to go away
I don’t want you back
I want the happiness you brought to my heart
And knew someone cared
But I guess im not well enough or someone you would love to always be there
Now the days are surely getting harder
And im longing for your thoughts
The way you used to hold me
Did you think that I forgot?
I may not be what you want
But im someone that is begging on my knees
Somehow I […]
The fact of knowing that i might not get better drives me close to a dead end, maybe life its self is tryna get rid of me, pray to not take me away but then again give me a reason to stay ?
Yah no i feel a whole lot better. Glad i joined this .thanks everyone for saving me . Y’all mean alot have a safe holiday and merry christmas && a happy new year loves take care . I hope you all Change your mind. <3 with love , hailey <333
another day and i feel just as worse as the day before.
i got up this morning and it took me like 5 minutes to realise where i am, who i am and take in my surroundings.
and when i finally do realise who i am and stuff i feel instantly like shit. Like completely empty. Like im walking around doing nothing.
My mind drifts towards the peace i might find if i leave this horrible world. i think about and i chicken out of it the more i think about it.
i love sleeping so much becuase it’s like being dead.
i know people might call me a lunatic […]
I can be your hero baby , I can kiss away the pain & I will stand by you forever , you can take my breathe away (:
People who talk to me always make me feel better , but I don’t. Know , I feel like Im nothing ,<\3 , I want to feel good , :/ I need a bestfriend maybe a guy bestfriend I don't have one :/ idk , im stupid anyways 🙁
Keeping posted on how everyone here is doing is hard because I do not have my computer and I’m  not able to do much off of my phone. But much love and hope to everyone here and that sees this post. <3
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IF I could do one thing with this pathetic life I would kill myself and take all your pain with me so that no body ever has to live I have for the last 23 years. I know its impossible and my death will do nothing for the cause but its a sincere thought. I have been living in hell for so long that I feel that reaching actual hell could not be any worse than this, and I deserve to burn anyways. I figure a fair punishment for hurting my family to no end is burning in hell in eternal torture and flame. But […]
Im actually kinda happy right now which is really really wierd for me haha. Im happy cause im in an amazing relationship with this amazing guy 🙂 hi lifeishorrible <3 haha but at the same time im worried about my great-grandma whose 100 yrs old, ses in the hospital and it doesnt look like shes gonna make it….i guess you cant have happiness without an equal amount of sadness
who said that we can’t give up and that it would be okay who said that we can’t fade away already…. i am at the end and i just can’t stand it any longer i just want too be happy but i have been stuck in a rut for the past 6 years when will it ever change. i am just wishing i could give up and never turn back i want to run away as far as i can *i prob. won’t run away but i wish i could* i just want too have a good balance in my life again <3
this is the end for me. goodbye everyone. i hope you all find your happiness. im not cared for so i give up, i came here to find help and a reason to live but all ive been told is im a liar and pathetic, i cant take this bullshit anymore.
goodbye, i love you all and dont forget you are beautiful!
goodbye life </3
Mitch Lucker’s death really hit me hard. I cried over his death like I should have a family members’. Â A lot of people say how can a band change your life, before one did…I thought the same. But when a band or maybe just a single song changes your life…you just know. Suicide Silence and Mitch Lucker in general are one of the bands that made me who I am. Changed my life really.
RIP Mitch we will miss you. You changed my life and so many others, thank you <3
Im ending my life tonight. I am tired of being bullied and abused. I’ll always love you babe</3 Don’t forget that! Well i guess this is goodbye. Goodbye guys, thanks for all the help you tired to offer.
 Remember, Your body is to fragile to be hurt.
-Lexis
Things are eying a little better:) pray I found out I made yearbook!!!! An it was funn metting new peoPle! On Monday I cHer Tryouts I hope u make it!! Ad tonight I jar dance….. Dance this year has been changeling but I think I can manage! 🙂 wish me luck! Today I haven’t throthen up I think I’m starting to heal after all of this pain.
just wanted to wish everyone one crazy hallows eve. </3
xoxoxoxooxoxoxox