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The only reason I’m still alive

by Sobriquet 1/27/2015

written by Sobriquet

Guilt.

Guilt is my prison cell.

6 concrete walls that confine me into an existence that I hate.

“Why guilt?” some of you may ask.

I feel guilty for the possibility that someone out there that I am not aware of would grieve upon my death.

People who are not there for me in life, yet would experience pain and self-blame if I completed my last task.

Knowing that I could possibly hurt more people than I know by finally ridding myself of the one thing that causes me the most pain –

That’s what confines me here to a joyless, meaningless life.

I need to be around people in real life. I […]

1/27/2015 1 comment

Had to tell somebody

by jennjenn 1/20/2015

written by jennjenn

So for starters, I’ve tried to commit suicide maybe half a dozen times. Through pills, a few vain attempts at cutting my wrists, which have left my arms embarrassing and cumbersome for finding work. I have been a cutter since I was 15, but those scars are hidden.

I used drugs for many years, meth, x, and shot coke for awhile. Well, I did it, I quit drugs. At 22, but than I started drinking. Real fun drinking, but managed to keep a job. When I didnt have a job, I drank all day and all night.

So I meet a man. Also an alcoholic. We moved […]

1/20/2015 3 comments

Ms. Gunslinger

by Bisban 1/19/2015

written by Bisban

I’m at the end
The fool, who is it
Tell me, because I don’t know
Evermore, that’s where I come from
Underneath, I want to bring-it, the power
But, I am
And so, I seek the oracle for the spirits
Hanashi, to infinity and beyond
Live-long and prosper
Please, lead us to the path
I’m just a homie, but I ain’t got nobody
I want, the man to be, the home-dog
The one on the boat
Imagine that, Ms. Gunslinger
I got no-one else to sing to, anymore
I’m the lone-stranger, take-it back
My birthright
But I don’t have anybody

1/19/2015 0 comment

Thank-you, thank you very much ladies n germs, such a warm-welcome. You’re beautiful, very-sweet, very-generous, gracious. I am indeed honored… to be here on this wonderful program. Of course I must warn you, one must be prepared for a totally unprepared program… ’cause

by Bisban 1/19/2015

written by Bisban

It’s weird, man
But I know, more than enough
You know what I mean
Sherry came to my house, yesterday
Christians, with her elder Asian friend
While I was resuscitating my, prayers
Like a climax, just in my zone of an unknown
So I open the door and it was just strange
At the end of the conversation, she asked if she could come back
And I was like, “Na, I’m just, too far away”
Seemingly disappointed quickly leaves
If they just knew the rendered, that they don’t know
Don’t come to my sacred, house, when I’m dying like that
But hey, I know the […]

1/19/2015 4 comments

by notsureifreadytogo 1/17/2015

written by notsureifreadytogo

O.k. guys. I have been in a relationship with a woman who has some serious emotional disabilities. Things get heated frequently and I have become very abusive. Luckily for her she left 2days ago. We have been raising our kids together so I have lost a son as well. The house is full of her possessions, presence, and memories. I find myself staring at her empty spot in our bed and i have begun sleeping with her pajamas in my hands. I have no help with bills. Its looking hopeless and the pain is overwhelming. All I know how to be is a family man […]

1/17/2015 2 comments

my little story

by deozt 1/17/2015

written by deozt

so did anyone feel you are live in different world , i mean the way i think and the way other think is just different , i love random thing, i love weird thing, my curiosity is limitless i want to know more and more, but people around me just be like ” dude you are really weird, try be normal like the others , or you are so stupid and what are you doing is useless” and other thing like that , they are bullying me cause of that , iam not super smart or talented man, but i just want to be […]

1/17/2015 3 comments

I quit bud and I ain’t got no-more, peace

by Bisban 1/16/2015

written by Bisban

That was pretty-funny, I guess
Too bad, I’m the only that isn’t toast-jelly
Bend like a hanger, what is it
Multiple-Tutu-Man, sounds the same on every-name
Can’t you tell you, you need to take-it easy, man
You probably ruining the site for any true-newcomers
With all the pure-gibberish that you say, not like me
Literally, eleven out of the first thirteen posts is his or it’s
What-up, too bad, I’m the only one that isn’t toast-jelly
Continuum all by-myself, fortifies is the suffering
At least, thank-you for that, I don’t know if I can say “comrade,” anymore.
Now, I know what I am but you […]

1/16/2015 8 comments

Spirit-Bomb

by Bisban 1/14/2015

written by Bisban

Spirit-bomb of Goku
I don’t get it
The way that I come
Not like Chi-Chi
I don’t know
The way to make-it
Do you hate me
Do you want me to feel pain
I’m here for you, I always be
In the same that I always was
I just need your spirit
I’m not here to steal you from a man
Koji, I love you, too, and I don’t know
I’ll make-it for you, too
I want you by my side
Just take-me to the place that I found
I can show you
I have no-more, do you want to hear my pain
You can […]

1/14/2015 4 comments

hitting the hurdles

by tphg 1/13/2015

written by tphg

I used to be so good at the charade of living (going to work, paying my bills, staying fed, keeping up appearances etc). Now, every moment is a fight. I have no will to maintain my life anymore. Being at work feels like a joke. I want to jump in front of a train, but instead, I ride it to the office everyday. Why? So that I can maintain my lifestyle until I die.

I frigging hate living! Oh my god! Every moment feels like gravel in my bloodstream. I spend most of my waking hours doing things I’d rather not be doing, and the rest […]

1/13/2015 4 comments

Cant Go On

by heartbroken33 1/6/2015

written by heartbroken33

My boyfriend of two years has left me and i cant go on.
I know this seems drastic but my life has not been easy and this is the final straw.

I was abused by my grandfather from an early age and because of this was unable to have children, (hysterectomy at 21)
My stepfather used to beat us instead of facing his issues with his father. And our mother beat us because defending us caused her to be beaten.

I have two failed marriages and i cant cope any more.
I love this man with all my heart but he has chosen to leave.

I have reserched […]

1/6/2015 3 comments

I feel so weird writing this shit

by FeelingFunny 12/28/2014

written by FeelingFunny

History reapeats as the darkness comes flooding back into my life. I bleed black, for the monster is me. Symbiotic with a world slowly dying, I am everything and nothing. Money makes the man, but nothing gold can stay.

12/28/2014 0 comment

The touch of a woman

by empty glass 12/22/2014

written by empty glass

I long for the touch of a woman, a woman near my own age. I don’t understand people who say that age doesn’t matter. Age does matter. If you are in it for young sex or the money perhaps that is different. I am not that kind of man. I do not want any younger women lets say under 45 because I am 57. It is not fair to the woman since I will not be alive for a long time like her. I would not want her to deal with the sadness and heartbreak that may come with a dead boyfriend/husband. She may also […]

12/22/2014 14 comments

If you can relate…..

by pumpkinlover 12/22/2014

written by pumpkinlover

I think I have now entered in a new state of mine. The “Real Suicidal Path” . The feeling of knowing you’ll never be happy no matter who you are with or where you are. It’s really horrifying to feel this way. It’s like nothing and no one matters because you, yourself, doesn’t even matter. It’s getting to the point where I’m beginning to not care how my loved ones feel about anything. Rather they are upset about their own problems, or mad over my feelings… I just want to get out of bed right now, go into the kitchen, and stick a pair of […]

12/22/2014 47 comments

Tired

by briannasucks 12/15/2014

written by briannasucks

One day i just wanna stop being the girl that everyone uses as a bad example like “you can either go with her or Brianna” “Ewww naw man her ugly self “ i just want to be the girl that a guy at least looks at out of amazement and not disgust.

12/15/2014 2 comments

Nadia Kajouji Case

by L4Y 12/15/2014

written by L4Y

This is a link to an episode of The Fifth Estate documenting the story of Nadia Kajouji, who was encouraged to commit suicide by a man posing as a female nurse online in 2008. This was quite a landmark legal case, as it brought to light the culpability of those who attempt to persuade others to take their lives over the Internet. As a true crime enthusiast and (obviously) someone who considers suicide and depression to be a major part of their life, I have found this to be one of the most fascinating cases I’ve seen in some time.

If you aren’t into true crime documentaries, this may not […]

12/15/2014 4 comments

Truth is, i’m a ghost.

by DreamingOfDeath 12/11/2014

written by DreamingOfDeath

There’s something inside of me, I’m considered a dead man. I’m alive now, but i’ll try, again and again, and again. Because I can not stop. I’ve been completely consumed by this. I hate, everything. I’ve learned to hate myself, and now I can’t take that back. I ruined my life, numerous times, and I’ll continue to do so. It’s as if I no longer control my body. I’ll try again. Till I am no more. Considering that, I’m already dead. It hasn’t happened yet, and it’ll happen again.

12/11/2014 1 comment

wed’s

by tc13 12/5/2014

written by tc13

a man died and went to hell. after wandering around for a while, he ran across the devil. the man said ” ya know, devil, ive been here for awhile, and its really boring. do you have anything to do down here?” the devil looked at the man and said “why, of course we do. do you like to drink?” the man said “yes, yes i do like to drink”. the devil replied ” on mondays, we drink as much as we want,from dawn to dark, whatever flavor you want,beer, wine, whiskey.” the devil continued,” do you like to do drugs?” the man said ” […]

12/5/2014 10 comments

The story of a man who was scared to live..

by Spartan_82 11/27/2014

written by Spartan_82

Few things about me. My name is Kiriakos. i am 32 years old. I am from Greece. I have to say that i have been diagnosed with Depression symptoms.

I am a very sensitive guy and probably overprotected by my family from my early years. I have friends but as from a gf i was very lonely since my early years. I was bullied mostly mentally at school every single day, i had problems my family to understand me and during the age of 16 had agoraphobia (i manage to pass it alone after 3 years). i was ugly as a young child and this let […]

11/27/2014 4 comments

never thought I would really consider this

by honeyblood 11/20/2014

written by honeyblood

but i just want to die. I’m tired. i have been suicidal before. but this is different. because i know the outcomes. things get better. but they never really change. and i don’t want to live an entire life cast under this shadow. if that makes me weak, out of touch, mentally ill, so be it. all i ever wanted was some form of justice -some type of recognition. i never got anything. the man that ruined my life sits on the beach and i’m sick of it, so bye. sorry i couldn’t be the strong one.

11/20/2014 2 comments

If you’re reading me darling love,

by psychoticbip 11/19/2014

written by psychoticbip

if you were reading me i’d be scared because then you’d really know how bad I get without you how bad I’ve been but I guess I enjoy the satisfaction that even if you read how crazy I was you’d at least find out how you were the only one who kept me sane for a little while. Sane is probably the wrong word HAPPY? HEALTHY? I don’t know lively to say the least. You see without you I see how filthy the world has become you were the best distraction you were the only good man my only good man. Oh how we talked […]

11/19/2014 3 comments

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