A while back, I was thinking about the idea of martyrdom and the nobility of dying, from which I came up with the notion: what if some of the martyrs that sacrificed themselves for the sake of others wanted to die? People like to think of martyrs being dealt an unfair hand in circumstances where their lives are sacrificed in exchange for the life of one or lives of many. And this would be the case, unless the hero or heroine already had a death wish. Like a true opportunist, they wanted their final going out to be noble and selfless, so they extended their suicidal temperaments for the sake of […]
Give me a reason
I see no hope
I see no point in existence
We are doomed to wander this plane
Without purpose
Without a cause
All I know is that…
We are the salt of the Earth
In that we salt this Earth with our bodies
Conceived as a curse
Condemned as a child of waste
We are born hanged
And we die in peace
Lay our bodies to rest
We do not fear death
Usurp our legacy
Spare us an eternity
In Hell
We are nothing but a jilted existence
Conscience in a prison of flesh
Forsaken life
Conceived as a curse
Condemned as a […]
Down in lines across the veins
It runs, drips and drains
Singing songs of total despair
the feeling one cannot compare
Euphoria down deep to the bone
drops drying in a new tone
Writing words at time with fright
a crimson flow my greatest delight
Letting out my fears
this has gone on without tears
Often scars happen at night
in day realize i’m not alright
Initiating relief slowly getting harder
life alone worse than a martyr
Pools of water stained with red
i’m alive, i never wanted to do what i did
I may be because i’ve already died
or it might be i’m Broken Inside
Why does the world hurt?
I look upon others, and I see all the hurt
I tell myself that it’s gone; but that is an outrageous lie
Why are they still hurting; I ask myself.
My parental instincts go forth to thee;
And I try to protect those that hurt by feeling their pain for them;
but if anything they writhe in agony more.
Why do people have to hurt other people?!
Why do adults hurt children? Why do adults hurt adults?!
Why do some not have morals in their lives…
I read all of the pain and suffering
I read of all the murders and crime. I hear of all the struggles.
I cry and pray. […]
Well, I don’t like to say the word “suicide” because it has always had negative connotations in my life. My family is comprised of a bunch of cold-hearted, sarcastic Argonauts with strong wills and drive, so we see suicide as pathetic. And the twist: I’ve felt suicidal since day one. The inner conflict of the way I was raised and the way I feel is certainly nothing short of overwhelming. I’ve always wanted different things from the people around me and consequentially I’ve felt stifled, suppressed, and unwelcome in my environment for years. I have very few friends, and the ones I do have I […]
my favorite band motion city soundtrack has lyrics that everyone should consider;
“they say what doesnt kill us
MAKES US WHO WE ARE”
as much as we can all look at our ‘struggles’ and ‘disorders’ as something that defines us, dont let it. dont BE your disorder. dont let it ruin or run your life, from depression panic disorder, bipolar, ED, whatever. youre lettinng whatever created that disorder in the first place make you.
i know how hard it is, to make a conscience effort to just BE YOU everyday with the struggles of school, work, kids, significant others, family and the fucking economyy on […]
I come here sometimes just to read. It amazes me that so many young men and women want to harm yourselves. Don’t take this the wrong way because I too started writing because life had become unbearable. I took enough pills a few months ago. that I thought I might finally have made it. The next day I woke up with my husband trying to talk to me. What a fool to put my family through so much pain. For God sake people your problem is you. Get out of your own way and stop being so SELF absorbed! Why not try as hard to find a reason, […]
The metal album by Panzerchrist, titled “Room Service” is quite nice.
http://www.darklyrics.com/lyrics/panzerchrist/roomservice.html
Just check out those lyrics. My favourites are:
“I know what you’re all thinking
You are holding on just trying to be cool
But know that come tomorrow
All your worries will be gone”
“And the love of my life
Can’t save me
Because
I have to save myself first”
“I
Choose
To
Make
A Stand
But to be a martyr – first you have to die”
“Kept inside
Where to turn?
Bottled up
When to burn?
Eating away
Filled with hate
No more cheeks to turn”
““Hey Waitâ€
You say
“That looks like bloodâ€
But no! It’s the pain […]