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Each little thing helps!

by Pretend Girl 1/6/2015

written by Pretend Girl

Thet is hard to imagine, in the thick of a depressive moment that emotions can lift and the depression can leave. After years and y,ears dealing with my depression, I find this is all too true! But we must remember, esp in the middle of an episode that it can change and it can lift!

This morning started out rough, last night’s depression continued to linger. I HAD to go to work, I wanted to go to work, but my heart was really back in the muck. So much so that when a lady asked me for a ride, I was mad. Oye. Not like me. […]

1/6/2015 1 comment

…Here I go

by Cowboybebopfan101 1/2/2015

written by Cowboybebopfan101

Ok, so. My google search failed obviously to find me a suicide pact. But while I found this I guess I’ll share my story~

I might kill myself. I have all the reason to, and not like most. Herp derp, I know people have troubles but most people that look at middle schoolers or high schoolers and listen to their “reasons” for suicide and generally agree that they have no reason to and they should live.

I /actually/ have little reason to live.

I /actually/ have reasons.

I most likely /actually/ cant find happiness in this life.

1/2/2015 1 comment

RIP

by dreamsinwhichimdying 12/25/2014

written by dreamsinwhichimdying

I remember last December 26. My grandfather’s birthday is the 27th, so we were driving down to Pittsburgh to see him. I was texting this girl I liked, when out of the blue, she told me that our middle school art teacher’s wife had just found him hanging in his art studio. I immediately got my mom to turn around the car and go home. A year later, I still can’t believe he’s gone. He was the most wonderful man I ever had the privilege to know. I remember how, on the first day of class each year, he would do magic tricks for us. […]

12/25/2014 1 comment

by LetItGo 12/23/2014

written by LetItGo

we’ll dance through the night with the moon light shining down on us
but in a few months ill text you while im drunk i won’t get a reply

we’ll talk for hours on end in the middle of the night both of us tired as fuck
but in a few months ill try to start a conversation with you and you’ll ignore me

we’ll hug each other when we see each other and talk for a few months
but in a few months when i see you you’ll ignore me like im nothing

we’ll talk about deep things and question life and have a great time
but […]

12/23/2014 1 comment

Needing Advice, Please!

by EvilKitten 12/18/2014

written by EvilKitten

It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I’ve been really busy with work and such.

Things are going rough and I on’y have until the 30th of this month to turn things around or I’ll lose everything.

These are my choices:

1) Default on my storage units and lose all mine and my late husbands possessions.

2) Sell my body to come up with $400 by the 30th.

3) Chain myself to a tree in the middle of nowhere tonight in soaking wet clothes and freeze to death.

Out of those options, which would you choose and why? What do you think I should do?

I’m working, but I don’t […]

12/18/2014 29 comments

Invisible

by cant.fixme 12/2/2014

written by cant.fixme

i was playing basketball today and the ball hit my middle finger, and it hurt so bad but that not the thing, the thing is they keep on playing dodging me on the floor NOBODY moved his finger to ask me if i was okay, am i invisible the big question why does everybody do not gives a fuck about me

12/2/2014 0 comment

I belong in the middle of the flowers (my intruduction)

by LuxuriousBunny 11/21/2014

written by LuxuriousBunny

I think’ve never introduced myself before… i apologize if i acted a kind bitter before… i was just in the phase ” i’ve passed through worse things, what is this person complaing about?”… i’ve realized that this was of no help.

Well, i’m from brazil, i don’t speak English perfectly as most of you’ve noticed already, i like poetry, art and also I’m passionate with the nature. Im yrs old and also an actor.

I wanna die because live has been a ***** with me.. so many sad things. and also i feel no one cares to the pain that is in my heart, i’ve been abused countless […]

11/21/2014 2 comments

I had this crazy dream..

by serenityseeker 11/13/2014

written by serenityseeker

I had a dream the other night that only frightens me because of the underlying message I found in it.
I dreamt that I was outside in the yard, I can’t recall what I was doing but it was a nice, warm, clear, day. I had heard a loud bang and fizzle type of sound. Myself and a few others that were also outside looked up to the sky and saw an enormous missile with three cylinders crash right into the hillside, not more than fifteen miles away. As others began to panic and clamour around, I just stood still, staring in awe. […]

11/13/2014 3 comments

A small breath of relief

by Aurora_Australis 11/13/2014

written by Aurora_Australis

Sometimes this helps. Just a little bit, when my feelings are tumultuous, anxiety is creeping through me and my stress levels are rising. I am overwhelmed by everything or nothing at all and It feels like I am at melting point, but I just want to stop feeling. To evaporate into thin air and just simply cease to be. Away from everything and everyone.

I Stop and I breath. Close your eyes if that helps, but breath in and out slowly. Concentrate on the air, going in and out, feel your chest rising gently and feel a wave of relaxation roll through your body, slowly washing over every […]

11/13/2014 1 comment

I’m not ready for the world?

by Sakuracha 10/24/2014

written by Sakuracha

Ever since I was in 7th grade I’ve been feeling suicidal. I’m a 15 year old girl who’s a sophmore now. I feel like I can’t take it anymore I’ve been bullied all of my middle school life even by my english teacher who encouraged my 8th grade classmates to make fun of me. I had moved from that school but the comments and memories won’t go away. People never understand they tell me to get over things when I need to be in a mental hospitoal and get medication. Even the person who was closetest to me(my ex boyfriend from middle school) has left […]

10/24/2014 4 comments

Form 1’d

by k2fraser 10/20/2014

written by k2fraser

Haven’t posted in a while. I created a blog to post all my thoughts, though I still lurked here. My blog has been compromised. Someone at work found it, reported it to my manager, and I ended up form 1’d a few nights ago. (Canadian, can’t leave the hospital till cleared by a psychiatrist.) I messed up. I have two blogs, one for my thoughts, one to sell stuff. I made the selling blog known at work, but I stupidly used the same handle for my posts on the other blog. I assume someone googled my handle and found the other site. Sigh, what’s done […]

10/20/2014 2 comments

Is it over for me now

by gonna die 10/19/2014

written by gonna die

well i think my best “friend” i think hes gonna tell everyone that im “gay but im not gay im bi so yea i will lose a lot of friends ???? i hope everything goes well i will only give 1 day tommorow monday to see how people will react

if they hate me oh well ill just kill my self and then ill haunt them maybe…. Middle school changed me i now where only kind of dark collors i hate it yeah help me

HELP ME

HELLPPP MEEEE

-brian mejia r.

10/19/2014 3 comments

I want to sing beautiful sounds

by Bisban 10/19/2014

written by Bisban

“Selina Kyle”

There is no escape
I need to roll out
Here in Gotham City
The suffer of hell
I already died
Walk to go die
Will I ever live
The nightmare that I am
Who can it be
That can save
Here at the end
My hero, the middle
Almost forever
Take me to life
Today

10/19/2014 2 comments

I hate myself

by jrd79808 10/10/2014

written by jrd79808

Ever since I was a child, I was never really happy with who I was. I always looked at other people and wish I could be them. Everyone is smarter, funnier, wealthier, stronger, more attractive, and/or just better off than I am.

When I was about 7, and later at age 11, I was sexually assaulted multiple times by two different people (a cousin and a fellow Boy Scout). I’m still traumatized by those experiences, but I believe I deserved it because I never said anything to stop them.

When I first developed depression, I started self-loathing. At age 13, I was diagnosed with a medical condition […]

10/10/2014 5 comments

Courage

by EvilKitten 9/28/2014

written by EvilKitten

I’m still trying to find the courage to jump. Jumping is like all I have left to try. Can’t bleed, tried it, got gnarly scars. Can’t OD, too much risk of survival. Want to try the exit bag, but I’ve heard that the success rate is less than favorable. I don’t want to jump. I want to die pretty, and I need my family to know that I’m gone. I don’t want them to worry and wonder if I just disappear and die out in the middle of nowhere. I can’t do that to them.

I don’t want to jump…. I thought about hanging, too, but […]

9/28/2014 7 comments

How much more hell?

by Visual 9/24/2014

written by Visual

Well, here I am in the middle of the night again after another typically fruitless, frustrating day. I struggle to get scraps of work in the only two vocations I have…commercial graphics and photography. Clients have simply disappeared despite my best efforts. What I don’t get is that my stuff pisses all over most of the material I see and I can’t get anyone to hire me at a wage any better than that of a janitor…or they want a degree, screw my experience. And the people who know NOTHING about my business are the first to offer “advice.” Ridiculous, insulting and just puts me […]

9/24/2014 7 comments

“Not Falling”

by bigjamdaddy 9/11/2014

written by bigjamdaddy

“Not Falling”
by Mudvayne

Always, known in, all my time,
A little left of center now
Reflect as I realize,
That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun by a star in the sky and
just be.
Sinners, casting stones at me

I… I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I… I bleed the demons that drag me down
I… I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I… I’ll bleed, (for no one), The demons, (but myself), that pull me down (for me and no one else)

Goodbye, sunshine, I’ve put […]

9/11/2014 2 comments

It’s hard

by salyblack84 9/11/2014

written by salyblack84

From the begining of my life I was different ..growing in a family of 6 children being in the middle always hard….I am a day dreamer dreaming of living my life to the extreme but all my dreams were broken one by one by society ,my family and finally my husband…I must live to obey and nothing more,if I think it’s always the wrong way of thinking as they love to call it…I feel like a slave..I’m not exaggerating …I have to dress the way he wants ,talk to whom he like…I’m not allowed to have male friends…even me posting here is forbidden …I’m abused […]

9/11/2014 0 comment

60 Feet

by kramdragon 8/26/2014

written by kramdragon

I am a hopeless romantic. I see so much beauty in the world, in so many things. I can’t enjoy most of it, but I can see it’s there. One example that may seem a bit odd is jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. As a jumper in the USA that is the dream. It’s just so perfect. So many people before have done it, and so many more have failed at it. The idea of all of those success’s waiting for you at the bottom. A mere 220 feet to join them. The thought of it is so peaceful. The problem is location. It’s […]

8/26/2014 1 comment

anyone from OZ?

by kateralia 8/23/2014

written by kateralia

Is anyone on here from Australia? Or is it just me? I feel so disconnected. Everything I find is in America…

I decided to colour my hair the other day, to try to get me out of this funk I’m in. It’s worked before. I’m naturally blonde, so you can imagine all the jokes I copped at school. I usually dye my hair black. It’s longer now, since I can’t afford a haircut, so it’s growing out. So I bleached it…

You can imagine the outcome… yellow ends, orange middle & white roots. My best friend (whom i live with) stared at me in horror & […]

8/23/2014 57 comments

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