Haven’t posted in a while. I created a blog to post all my thoughts, though I still lurked here. My blog has been compromised. Someone at work found it, reported it to my manager, and I ended up form 1’d a few nights ago. (Canadian, can’t leave the hospital till cleared by a psychiatrist.) I messed up. I have two blogs, one for my thoughts, one to sell stuff. I made the selling blog known at work, but I stupidly used the same handle for my posts on the other blog. I assume someone googled my handle and found the other site. Sigh, what’s done is done.
As soon as I walked in that meeting room at work and saw who was there I know what that meeting was about. Oh, I could have denied the blog was mine. They couldn’t prove it. All they had was circumstantial evidence. They called in some professional from their EAP who tried to schedule me with my family doctor. He was on vacation so she said the next best thing was to take me to a hospital.
I was at the hospital for 7 hours. I swear they keep you waiting so long to see what you’ll do. If you’ll freak out or something. I talked to six different people. I’d say about 30 minutes of my stay involved talking. The other 6 and a half hours were waiting. I even had to wait in one of those stereotypical psych hospital rooms with the bed in the middle of the room, a toilet and sink set up like in a prison, a camera in the top corner and it was all in this aqua green colour.
I could tell from the first person I talked to that they didn’t think I was acute, but once you’re in the system you can’t get out until you follow the procedures.
I can understand why my workplace did it, but I still think it was quite extreme. I’ll have to relocate my blog so I can have that safe, anonymous outlet again.
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I’m sorry that you lost that safe place and that your privacy was violated (intentionally or not) by a coworker. I can’t imagine how difficult that must be to deal with on a day to day basis.
I hope you get out (if you’re not already) of the psych ward soon and that you can get over the terrible experience. It can be pretty traumatic.
I hope you find a new place that you like to share your thoughts soon and remember that you if ever want to vent, SP is always here, or you could also send me a email =)
Hope your day gets a little better and that the coworker who reported you falls and gets their clothes completely screwed up for work ;D
Thanks. The one thing I do know, assuming I can trust them, is that only my manager and someone from HR knows. Well, I guess there is that person who brought it to my manager’s attention, and I have my suspicions as to who that may be. I can’t prove it though. I have no hard feelings. I understand that my writings may have concerning, and I can understand not coming directly to me because the topic of suicide is something that a lot of people don’t want to talk about or can’t deal with.
I was only in the psych ward for about 7 hours, so that was fine. Mostly just sitting around.
I think the best bet is to move my blog and change the name I author under. Then only the most determined would be able to find it…