I still remember when I first found this page, and well, so many things have happened since then. When I look back at the past years, it gets blurry. I can remember some events, and it is hard to explain, but it’s like they are just there. I feel dissociated from them. And it is like I forget about them unless I am really thinking about them or I have one of my off days. I thought that I had gotten better at handling myself, and for a while, it was true. But this year, as well as the last months of last year, have […]
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Migraine
Hello,
I’m glad I found this website, if only to vent and see that are other folks in same boat (not that I’m happy about that).
My Story
I’m a 48 year-old male. Been diabetic for about 20 years. I been somewhat suicidal starting in my teens. I grew up in a fucked-up white trash family. Mom is a religious freak with little or no employable skills. My father has all sorts of mental issues and was quite abusive growing up. I decided to move out of state when I was 21 but at the time I getting along OK with my parents. I wasn’t kicked out or […]
I have been off work for two days with a migraine. I work away from home so I can’t even be with “loved ones” when I am like this. I have no one to talk to when I am away and am getting so very tired. Thankfully I work in a job where killing myself is very easy and can be an “accident” so that someone will still get my life insurance. I have thought about killing myself so many times it would be strange to have a day without those thoughts. I don’t know why I feel this way, I have a loving family, […]
Fucking brilliant. I have a tooth infection. Second one in two years, despite excellent dental hygiene (I’ve been a nazi about this stuff since I was 16 and had a prolonged nightmare involving braces and tooth enamel). I’ve had a migraine for two days straight, unrelenting, very little sleep, and now I’ve figured out why. Tooth infections are the most fun, amazing things.
So… probably going to the hospital. Again. I think I should just rip my goddamn teeth out of my head so I don’t have to put up with this shit anymore. They’re more trouble than they’re worth when you don’t have insurance. Either […]
For the past 3 months, I haven’t had a night where I haven’t either had a migraine or a severe panic attack.
I’m not dealing with another 7 days of this.
This will be my third post, and my final one as well.
Ive been trying to type how I feel, but I just cant get my thoughts straight. I have this very often. I know what I want to say. And in my head I hear the exact sentence, I just cant get it of my lips. And its not only when talking about emotions, I also have it when I’m just in the middle of a random conversation. Like my brain kind of just stops and I just cant get the words out. The feeling of having something on the tip of your tongue, only difference is that I know what I want to say but […]
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted…My holiday season was relatively calm..as I took off from work, and was off from school…mostly drama free except the ever present arguments with the asshole I’m forced to relate to as his daughter. But I digress.
School is back in full swing…in addition to more drama at work (seriously, I work with a bunch of 50 year old catty bitches in a freaking cafeteria…)
Needless to say, I’m already stressed the fuck out…looking for jobs, internships, working, going to school, dieting (i have a wedding to attend in june…needing to lose weight), and attempting to maintain my end of relationships. I’ve […]