I am slipping, slipping fast and hard. For a day I couldn’t feel the pain anymore, instead I felt numb, nothing, dead inside, which is actually worse. So both kids are out today, I am on my own, broke open a cheap bottle of wine and got drunk just enough so I can feel again. Trying to loose my inhibitions so I might just on an impulse do what I need to do, but I still know that my moral compass is stubbornly strong so I won’t. Crying. I want to die more than anything else. Still, it can’t happen. Really loosing the plot today. […]
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