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by endingtheagony 2/13/2014

written by endingtheagony

I couldn’t say that things are alright.

Because I can’t remember the last time they were.

And the truth is that I have been battling each day,

just trying to hold my head above water.

I don’t want to live like that anymore.

I don’t want to live in state of constant battle with myself.

While I will never expect to see myself happy;

I refuse to continue to be my own worst enemy.

When everyone wants to see me fail,

I have to be the one who is rooting for me.

I have to be the one who proves everyone wrong.

2/13/2014 2 comments

I need you.

by katerbugg 2/11/2014

written by katerbugg

I wish you cared like you told me you did.
I so desperately want to tell you what’s in my head, how I want to end my life, how all I really want is your help.
I need you, right now. But I’m too scared to let you know.

2/11/2014 3 comments

Tremors

by Selbstmord 2/10/2014

written by Selbstmord

No one knows and no one can see. I cant cry anymore only gag and rock myself until I stop moaning the pain away. Its silly how we can fall so rapidly and just realize this once we have the pills and alcohol at the ready. How did it come to this? “I just want you to get better so you can stop hurting everyone else.” he said. Why did he say it? They sent me somewhere where I was supposed to get better. I said it made me better. In reality they blew my head off. Its terrible thing, lying. What can I do […]

2/10/2014 0 comment

Falling Apart

by Songbird 2/8/2014

written by Songbird

My life is falling apart, things that I didn’t think could hurt me have managed to get inside my head and I don’t know how to get rid of them. I haven’t open up to anyone because just the thought of it terrifies me. I’ve only ever opened up to one person in my life, she was a therapist and she ended up lying to me and sharing my secrets with people who she knew I didn’t want to hear them.

2/8/2014 2 comments

My Home

by creeper tales 2/7/2014

written by creeper tales

So many doors.
Donâ€™t know which way.
Nowhere to go.
Nowhere to stay.
I hear voices,
inside my head.
I hear things creeping
beside my bed.
They say iâ€™m different.
They say iâ€™m crazy.
I donâ€™t do anything.
They think iâ€™m lazy.
If hear voices
they give me shots.
Oh so much medication.
Pills? I take lots.
The people in my head,
they give me so much pain.
But now I know the truth.
I have gone insane.
In my home
I share with many,
each person has a room.
For there are always plenty.
We are all so different,
but yet weâ€™re all the […]

2/7/2014 0 comment

After all these Years

by lostandconfused17 2/4/2014

written by lostandconfused17

Why after all of these years must these thoughts return?

The dark urges screaming for pain,

Begging for the split skin and spilt blood.

Purifying my soul.

Why after all of these years have they returned?

The voices screaming silently in my head,

Screeching their displeasure at my joy.

Burying my pain.

Why after all of these years must they be heard?

The drip, drip of blood spilling on tile,

The scent of it rising in the air,

To cleanse my mind.

2/4/2014 0 comment

I Give Up.

by JiminyCrispies 1/29/2014

written by JiminyCrispies

I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate my life. I hate this world. We’re so fucked up. In the way that people are. The way we act, the way we have to live. I just don’t know if I can be a part of it anymore.Â And I don’t know if I’ll make it to the end of the week.

I just wanted to get better. To get these things out of my head. To stop seeing things, to stop hearing things. To stop hurting myself and everyone else. To know what’s real and what’re not. But everything’s just gotten worse. […]

1/29/2014 2 comments

Depression, for me.

by Pum 1/28/2014

written by Pum

Everything was dull. Clouds hung over my head no matter how brightly the sun shone. I had to resist the nearly uncontrollable urge to fall flat on the ground, curl up into the grey hoodie I had been wearing for days, and cry. It pained me to smile. I was going through one of the worst bouts of major depression I have ever endured.
I fell into a rabbit hole, and theories, disorders, and research, along with a whole lot of blurry and blank areas was my wonderland. I ached to know more. I needed to know as much as I possibly could know about […]

1/28/2014 4 comments

I like being alone

by hellblau 1/27/2014

written by hellblau

I like being alone, I like when I have my own.

I can think enough to talk to myself,

But not enough to forget how I felt.

He still remains on my mind,

Like I can’t take him apart.

I like being alone, cause I can talk to him,

I can hear his voice on my head, telling a verse,

but somehow I forget,

How to make him go away.

27/01/14

9:23 pm

1/27/2014 0 comment

something strange happened to me

by sfigato 1/27/2014

written by sfigato

last night at 4 am i wake up -without any feeling of the usual painful anxious or guilt in my heart ..i had just the usual insane thoughts on my head but without any related feelings nothing special has happened yesterday ,my big problem still there ,and i was not drunk … maybe cause i almost have the exit way in my hand.. anyway it is nice losing the connection between my thoughts andy feelings

1/27/2014 1 comment

by LetItGo 1/27/2014

written by LetItGo

so many things
swirling in my head
so many questions
wondering in my head
so many thoughts
drifting in my head
so many secrets
locked up in my head
so many feelings
caged inside in my head
so many wishes
wanting to be real in my head
so many things imagined
wishing to be realistic in my head
so many things
in my head

1/27/2014 1 comment

by crazylostme 1/26/2014

written by crazylostme

I wish I knew what’s wrong with me – I think I may have started a few posts with that line before! I need a rant, and a good long cry, and some sort of an answer from whichever celestial being might be listening. I have been single for a long time, now I have a fantastic boyfriend. He tells me everyday that I’m beautiful, yet I can’t allow myself to believe him. I’m convinced that he’s too good for me. He loves me, and he wants to marry me – yet I find myself fighting the urge to cut, and I have so many […]

1/26/2014 2 comments

Day 14

by LetItGo 1/25/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Phew! It’s been two weeks, well 14 posts!!! So thank you for sticking with me and I hope you continue to help me through this journey of my life.

This post really isn’t going to be about my day, more of what I am feeling like right at this moment.

This moment. Right now. I’m curled up in my room, on my floor, with a comforter over my head, The Scientist by Coldplay on repeat crying my eyes out. Why am I crying my eyes out? I can’t find something. Now before you go and comment, “Oh stop being a drama queen,” or anything like that. […]

1/25/2014 11 comments

fuck it

by why i dont no 1/24/2014

written by why i dont no

iv given up on me… simpal as no seciond thought so why am i still alive esey because of jacey i love her so shit i do whant to live but not for me why would any one live for me im ugly skiney fucked up worthless spited me im not worth the shit on your shoe but she shows me this 🙂 and im happy

but i havent herd from her in a bit i konwshes ok but some one till that to the guy in my head… i dont belev in god but i fucking pray for her evrey night kiss the phchure stell […]

1/24/2014 2 comments

Nothing.

by purplepain 1/23/2014

written by purplepain

It’s one of those mornings that you wake up. Wake up numb. Numb and empty. I can’t even make sense of my thoughts right now, because there are none, but, at the same time, too many things are rushing through my head.

I feel nothing, I feel loneliness, I hate myself for missing him like this. The numbness stabbing at my heart. He’s done enough, don’t be stupid.

I woke up with that feeling of knowing that your voice might break if someone makes you talk right now. But I don’t want them to know I’m dying little by little inside, fear and insecurity taking over me.

Stare […]

1/23/2014 3 comments

You’re tearing me apart.

by hellblau 10/2/2013

written by hellblau

You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.

You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.

Without being there with you, but in your […]

10/2/2013 0 comment

Ramblings

by David 9/7/2013

written by David

It’s been a tough few months for me lately.

Some days i hide it well, others, not so much.
Some days I am sat on my own in my bedroom and I feel so low I have no idea where to go or what to do.
I consider whether my next breath is worth taking dozens of times a day.
Some nights i go to sleep and admit to myself that not waking up; well it wouldn’t be so bad.
Sometimes i will try to talk family or friends but they are always seeming so happy that I don’t want to spoil their day so I […]

9/7/2013 4 comments

Helium hood Kit – DOESN’T WORK!!

by LostOlHope 4/7/2013

written by LostOlHope

So I tried the helium hood kit today. I purchased the flow control kit and pressure guage from exit and bought the balloon time tank of the recommended size, checked the pressure to see if it was full, made the exit bag as per the peaceful pill books instructions and guess what?… IT DIDN’T WORK!!!! I was sitting there like an idiot with the bag around my head for about 5-10 minutes and I didn’t loose consciousness! I felt a slight tingling in my toes and my voice got extremely high but that’s about it. What a waste of time and money! I spent about […]

4/7/2013 63 comments

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