FYI – you have to do it for more than five minutes
try it … but commit to it like you have when you criticized yourself. Like anything that is worth while, it takes time, practice and patience but most of all it takes commitment.
positive dawg
It’s been a while since I’ve wrote anything, let alone posted anything… I think December was the last time I posted? I’m too lazy to check (even though it is a few clicks). I’ve been a diagnosed depression patient for almost 5 years now, dunno how long I’ve actually been depressed for though, seems like it’s been for a good chunk of my life though
There was a certain moment in my life when I reallyy really wanted to kill myself. And then there was those other moments when I was really close to that… though even in my most jaded of times, I still had some sliver […]
hey guys! this is my first post (and hopefully first of many)! if you need any help at all, no matter what your story, i’d love to help! talk to me!!! my ears are open!!! don’t give up! talk to someone first! i’m not a counselor, i’m just an 18 year old kid who found hope! email me!!! PLEASE!!! don’t give up!!
nic2053574@maricopa.edu
PEACE!
HOPE FOR THE HOPELESS
Hi,
I’m Arnaud and I’m 20 years old.
If you ask me what I think about my life I can only say that it sucks. I don’t know what to do.
Most people see me as a happy person with lots of humor, a nice smile and lots of friends. That’s nice because it is exactly what I want to show to my friends and family. I don’t want them to worry for me because I know they can’t do anything to help me.
When people ask me questions like: “what is your goal in life?†or “what is your biggest dream?†I reply: “buying an Island in the […]
i’m just tired. i literally came today to a point where i wanted to seriously die. i kept trying to hold my tears back. and i was frusstrated.
i haven’t cut myself in 4 years but today i cut my arm to remember that feeling. the feeling that calms me down.
i spend my teenage years babysitting
monday/tuesday: Â Â Â 9am-10pm
wednesday: Â Â 9am-5pm
friday: Â Â 2pm-10pm
saturday/sunday: Â Â Â 9am-5pm.
babysitting a baby with down syndrome, a 2 year old and a 9 year old isn’t easy. Â sometimes even other kids.
i never have time for myself.. not even for a simple hang out with a friend. my mom always has […]
I’ve decided to get a tattoo. A ‘subtle’ reminder for myself of my last attempt. Not that I think I’ll be forgetting it anytime soon. I guess it’s supposed to remind me that the worst is over.
I designed it myself. It is obviously a “tree of life” like image. Hidden in the negative space of the foliage is the word ‘forgiven’, and hidden in the roots is the date of my last attempt.
Here’s what it will look like
There are more dead people than living. And their numbers are increasing. The living are getting rarer.
To die will be an awfully big adventure.
Death As a dark Shadow Beckons his prey Into the unknown By a soft whisper In the soul
In every shadow a light
In every tear a smile
In death I know there is still life that lingers for a while.
Death is just a chapter of a book that never ends.
Thank you for readin
One pearly day in early May
I walked upon the sand
And saw, say half a mile away,
a man with gun in hand.
A dog was cowering to his will
as slow he sought to creep
Upon a dozen ducks so still
they seemed to be asleep.
When like a streak the dog dashed out,
the ducks flashed up in flight.
The fellow gave a savage shout
and cursed with all his might.
Then as I stood somewhat amazed and gazed with eyes agog,
With bitter rage his gun he raised and blazed and shot the dog.
You know how dogs can yelp with pain;
its blood soaked in the sand,
And yet it crawled to him again,
and tried to […]
When my best life time perioud leaves me I know that it’s not the same…
Death isn’t just mouving from one room to another or ending an reletionship… but for me that is good enough to be true….
It wasn’t never what it is now or what it will be tomorow morning… It will e never the same, I’ll be never the same vivid calange searchingm young phisitian and programist, I’ll never revolution for thousents of people including me again or share my dreames and love, in life with no pain until …
Funny that Garsie Marckes wrote about it in one of his books so no, I […]
The thoughts are comming back again stronger than ever. I’ve been crying more and more lately. I didnt even go to school today because im thinking about doing it. I just dont see the point of living anymore. Things are getting worse for me. Im just tired of everyone being so mean to me for no reason. Last week this boy cussed me out on facebook for no reason! Then yesterday he said i look like a man, and that im ugly. I haven’t done nothing to him at all. I don’t understand. And i cant even go in the cafeteria without everyone talking about […]
Fact: There are three emotional things every person needs…
1.) To be loved.
2.) To love.
3.) Something to look forward to.
Today I realized that I can’t kill myself. I can’t kill myself because there are people who actually need me. There are people who actually appreciate me and my presence. There are people who love me more than I love myself and I there are people I would do anything for. If I died, it would affect so many people. Think about yourself, think about the people you care about and the people that care about you. I know someone loves whoever is reading this, multiple people […]
Two daggers pierced through my heart and tore up my soul;Â
My heart bleeds;Â
My body lay still;Â
Numbness consumes me,
Yet I continue to breathe mindlessly.Â
It is a battle between life and death.Â
I ask myself Why?
I faint voice inside of me whispers to me that it is the ray of hope that lays dormant deep within my soul.Â
I am not a doll;
I am not so pretty.Â
I am not your love;Â
And I never will be.Â
In silence I weep, for I am lost,Â
Because I gave you my all.Â
Lost forever I shall be, until I die.Â
I was thinkin in a way to start telling you the way I feel everyday.But now, right now, I don’t feel good. And I have to explain that because if I don’t say anything it will be worst.
Three years ago, I knew a girl. She is a writer, I love how she write. One year ago, I talk to her for first time. I told her that I liked her. She doesn’t knew me, and I don’t knew her, but it was the truth. Months passed, and we keep talking. I got along with her. Over time, we know each other. I fell in love […]
I want to do it.
On monday, im planning again…. Apart from this time i haven’t made the mistake of telling ‘Everyone’. So my intention is to travel to a bridge…and you can probably guess the rest….
Life has not gotten better, its gotten worse? My OCD has. Fear of things are coming back…and my hands can tell you that, they don’t appreciate soap as much as i thought they would….
My family know ‘Everything’…at least thats what they think, they’re some things i havent told anyone….and probably never will….It has just made life awkward, and the arguements don’t stop, either about me or about my dad.
My new […]
I lost the control that I’d maintained for so long…trauma…attempted suicide one day and the next…”saved” by my best friend…the loss of my best friend…I am collapsing into myself as I have destroyed my life and continue to destroy this moment and the next.
I look to people to talk with but all I see are names…all I can tell them is a story of self-pity.
I wish I didn’t tell me best friend I took 60 pills…
I wish I hadn’t told her anything…
I wish I had used a blade…
I wish I had the courage I did a year ago when I brought the handful of pills […]
today i had my oral report 🙂 it went pretty good. no one asked questions or anything. but my face didn’t get all red like usual. Â it was easy (ish) Â haha.
well yesterday i got my friend to draw a butterfly on my leg (where i cut) hopefully you all know what the butterfly project is. and i haven’t cut in 3 days 🙂 I’m kinda proud of myself.
-Morgan………….RawrIamTurtle
Hey everyone. If you have read my post i then you will know alot about me if not then here it is i cut and burn, and suicide thoughts cross my mind alot. But today i want to hear your guys stories. I am doing a video for my school to share about how suicide efffects peoples lifes everyday. And i want your stories. If you would be willing to make a short more about what your going through or what you went through, how cutting burning or suicidee effected you or how its affecting you now> i would love to share and impact my […]
I’m not sure what I’m doing here. All I know is today I feel really bad. I feel like an empty shell just living life as a robot. I am afraid of the darkness yet I want it to engulf me, I just want the pain to end.  It’s been so long living with heartache and the bad memories. I just feel like I want it all to end I’m so tired, so tired I just can’t out of this hole. I pray I can overcome this but I never can. I just it want it all to end just go into the darkness and dissapear.
who else is sick of stereotypes and people judging? i know i am, but i also know i judge as well. tho i try not to..
well my half idea is.. we should do something about it don’t you think? i want to do something like on the movie ‘pay it forward’ if you haven’t seen that movie watch the trailer, you will still understand :). but the thing is, my brain runs dry when i try to think of what do to. so i need some help. i think this project will keep me busy. so my depression might be pushed to the back of […]