8am- scheduled wake up
10am- actually woke up
10:02am – ah fuck late again
10:05am begin caffeine/nicotine regiment
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12pm- work starts to go to hell
12:30pm- spouse is in melt down
(This continues as a back and forth on which gets attention, which sucks the life out me more)
2:30pm- spouse declares I’m the problem, relationship is over (not hopeful, never is)
3:15pm- work days fucked, with 10 hours to go, isolation is creeping in, the sun is too shining, happy people piss me off with their happiness.
4pm- me: here’s the issue
Boss: no that issue […]
this year has been horrid, I lost my girlfriend after a drug induced psychosis and wasted all of my money, I’ve managed to save some up again but I’m over feeling hopelessly depressed everyday. I’m buying enough pure nicotine to make sure it works, I tried oleander but nothing happened. My family will be upset but I just can’t do it anymore
I started smoking cigarettes a few months back and found myself becoming addicted to nicotine (as you’d expect). I find that giving in to the addiction helps, when you’re craving something and you get it you tend to feel better, even if just for a short time. The idea is based around something I saw in trainspotting, the main character says that when you’re on heroin all you worry about is scoring and when you’re off it you start to worry about a whole lot of other things. I know there is a great difference between a heroin addiction and a nicotine one but they […]
I have decided to go. My husband left me for the second time. I went all out to save him from domestic violence chargsd. I lied on the stand he never hit me; but the truth is he has never stopped hitting me or verbally abusing me. I have loved him truly n have gone all out. I risked my credibility, and the day charges got dropped he left me.
i pray this never happens to anyone but i also pray my pain ends soon. I have decided to take my life; after so many attempts of dying i am trying this nicotine ingestion.
I want to […]
*poof*
I’m not a smoker, but a cigarette with coffee hits the spot sometimes. I like the way I get spun up on nicotine and caffeine since I hardly ever have either.
It lifts my lazy depression and maybe…..just maybe will be enough to get where I’m destined to go tonight.
Really don’t want to see another morning
Things become complicated when talking about the source of my depression…Â Apart from the Bipolar and the usual day to day naturaly occurring depression, there is almost certainly a third…
Appologies for the length of the post, I hope someone is bored enough to read the whole thing ;)Â I just wanted to post it in case I had to explain things again at some point…
I have a fairly rare connective tissue disorder called Marfan’s Syndrome. About one in every 5000 people are affected. The condition is extremely hard to diagnose and I was only diagnosed by the age of 28. As a baby, I refused […]
hey everyone …..xx
hope you are all well .. <——- that question is so fckn annoying dontcha think .. = of course we are not well dumbass !!
well i know im not – i dont know what to do .. im so lost – numb – sick of my life !… im so scared im confused ..
today ive not really been in touch with reality to be honest – ive not even got washed or dressed – TRAMP ALERT !
