so….depression….isn t that the worst *****? i feel that i can t and won t do it….it stole everything from me…even myself. i ve been happy, i know the feeling, i miss it like the human misses oxygen. i can t have it back….i had a break down and lost everything.nothing can change the past and we cannot rewrite history. i choose not to live in pain. i tried for a while…some meds, some therapy….nothing worked…i just want and wanted out. this fear of fucking death, the unknown, still keeps me here…i know it won t be for long…i can t bear too much. honestly…life […]
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not to live
So, I need help. I don’t know why I live anymore. My dad has been abusing me and bullying me since forever. Whenever I get picked up from him on weekends he just abuses me and calls me a failure. And compares me to everyone else as if I am not good. Now my best friend that I thought we shared everything in common with supposably thinks I’m lying because he boyfriend lied to her about something and of course girls choose their boyfriends. And the thing is she told me to change. And now she ended the friendship with me. By growing up I […]
See, I can come up with 100 reasons NOT to live.
Life is too demanding for you.
Because there’s nothing more you want from life.
Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.
No more having to prove you’re good enough for people.
No more having to lie and pretend.
No more being treated unfairly.
No more holding the weight of the world on your shoulders.
You’re tired of being judged.
No more being ordered around by people.
No more competition.
No more debt. You actually won’t need money anymore.
Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.
Because you’re going to die anyway. It might as well be on your […]