I got my period this morning and i just got off an acid trip so im feeling really low. its the one time of the month i cant fight off. i know i said id never get on her ever again but i need to hear myself think for a bit to keep these thoughts away. Fucking shit… and julian just fucking left. feel like a panic attack is coming on 🙁
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One Time
de·serve
/dəˈzərv/
Verb
Do something or have or show qualities worthy of (reward or punishment).
Synonyms
merit – earn – rate – be worth
How I hate this word – let me count the ways …
Ok – no, I’m not going to count the ways – but I hate hate hate this word – because it is so so misused. (Especially around here on SP)
The general use of this word has been utterly corrupted to become synonymous to “i am OWED something” as in some sense of entitlement – like you’ve supposedly done something SOOO special that everyone should bow down and worship at your feet and bequeath you with adoration, […]
Who Am I? Someone No One Loves. What Am I? A Girl Who Everyone Will Judge. What Did I Do? Honestly, I Don’t Have A Damn Clue. Why Me? I Am Never Complete. Suicide? Overwhelms My Mind. Thoughts Of Dying? Yeah, About A Million Times. Tried Suicide? I Overdosed One Time. Did It Help? No, I Didn’t Die. That’s A Shame. See, I Can’t Do Anything Right. Wish You Were Dead? Always Crossed My Mind. I Hold My Breath.. And I Die. No More Pain? That’s My Plan. Everything Okay? Yeah, Now That I’m Dead..
Sincerely, Me
always my parents told me “ald these problems are made by our fault” is this normal? because i’m 15 years old and i have other way to see the world and please i’m just 15!!! i cut my veins in the shower because i don’t know how to face the world… i don’t think that it’s just my fault i just play truant one time and the huge trust go to the toilette in a second…
This one time I saw a little girl eating ice cream and playing with her little brother. Her hair was puffy and cute. Full of volume. she had glasses and she looked happy. She was smiling. She looked about 7-8 years of age. When i saw her my heart filled with joy of how cute she looked. i wanted to hug her because she looked really cute, but all I did was yell “oh my god look at that child’s hair!” and i pointed at her. Like a *****. LIKE AN IDIOT. I went home and didn’t say a word to anyone. I locked myself […]
I came here with a purpose and left with a ramble that I hope is helpful in some way or another
written by NotReallyHereAtAll
When I saw the words ‘someday, all this pain will be worthwhile’ one time, then many other times on countless blogs, I would just shake my head, and silently disagree that my sadness would come to nothing, except perhaps recovery, then more nothing. But I recently realised that my pain has helped one aspect of my life: I am writing again. And what I am writing is good. Sure, it’s just a few very short and broken stories with loose plots and screwed up people, but that’s okay. Because what I’ve written is good. It’s not happy, but it is real and I’m pleased with […]
I typed out a million different ways to start off the breaking in of my first post here, the only thing I could think of was “hey so I tried to kill myself this one time” that’s what it came down to.
Kind of sad to think I made all the effort to sign up to this and yet that’s all I can think to say. So let me tell you my story.
It may not be as eccentric or shocking a most people’s here but I’m not looking for a condition. I’m just going to give the honest truth.
I work hard for everything I’m not […]
My life seems to have fallen apart.
The First thing that happened was my mum leaving my dad , yeah alright parents break up all around but my mum left me with my dad and my three brothers.My life was never gonna be the same.
The Second thing that happened was disgusting I was still 8 and my oldest  brother was 15 . One day I asked if I could play some songs on his keyboard and he turned round and asked me to kiss him and he’d allow it, so I did ’cause I had to practice this song for my lesson. Then after that it happened more and more […]