Looking up from my bus stop. Sydney cbd. I think it loaded sideways. Oops
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I feel a little..bleh..if you know what I mean. I have a pretty good life right now. But. I don’t like me. I hate me. I wrote a lot more explaining why but I accidentally deleted it..Oops. I would rewrite it but it’s 1am and yeah.. but suicide has kinda been on my mind for…5 years for more reasons accidentally deleted. I’m older now but still I really would like to uhm…sleep forever. So uh.. night -Someone who wanted to talk
Just a few minutea ago i had a big fight with my mom, one of the most biggest fights we ever had, this was the second time that in a fight, i do selfharm, i feel it is a way to calm a little, i don’t want to, i was trying to let it behind, but i’m too weak, too stupid to get over it.
plain and simple. I’ve gone through the motions, made people think I’m a positive and happy person, but the overwhelming, undeniable truth is that I’m miserable. I welcome death 95% of the time, wishing it would find me, as I don’t want my children and family dealing with a suicide. I live near a mesa, it’s beautiful, has large cliffs ….what if I could make it look like an accident? Oops, I slipped and plummeted to my death. What a shame. I’ve fantasized about this scenario almost everyday for a year….but every time I make it up to the top my endorphins are pumping from […]