plain and simple. I’ve gone through the motions, made people think I’m a positive and happy person, but the overwhelming, undeniable truth is that I’m miserable. I welcome death 95% of the time, wishing it would find me, as I don’t want my children and family dealing with a suicide. I live near a mesa, it’s beautiful, has large cliffs ….what if I could make it look like an accident? Oops, I slipped and plummeted to my death. What a shame. I’ve fantasized about this scenario almost everyday for a year….but every time I make it up to the top my endorphins are pumping from the hike, thought of my daughters race through my mind and obviously I chicken out.
Death, come find me, put me out of my misery. Please.
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Don’t think of death as an escape. Once it’s done, it’s done. You can never change anything in your current life again. Even if you believe in the afterlife, you can’t change your current life or other’s actions. As long as you live you can still change something.