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My Last Goodbye

by capricious 11/6/2014

written by capricious

Dear Reader,

Thank you for taking a moment to read my last thoughts. It is appreciated even in death.

What did I do? I took a huge amount of pills.

Why did I do it? I couldnt stand the physical and emotional pain anymore. The stress of day to day life was too much for this fragile soul.

That being said, I will be in a better place. I know my family will miss me, but they will get over it in time. I’ve tried the “just wait, things will get better” game. It seems only those cut out for life get over these things. I’m just not meant […]

11/6/2014 21 comments

“I still love you, even if I don’t like what you are doing.”

by Lovebug4142 11/6/2014

written by Lovebug4142

Today, was really down, more then usual, so I had taken a pain pill. And I was thinking during the last period of the day that I was going to home and overdose on pain pills. My friend had asked me why I was so quiet, so I told her, and she told me a lot of people would miss me. I told her I didn’t believe her, she told me to go ask my Mentor, Ms. M if she would miss me. So I did. She told me she would be sad and mad. And that she would miss me. She gave me a […]

11/6/2014 2 comments

If you want to kill the pain…

by RealTalk30 11/6/2014

written by RealTalk30

….you have to kill the person!

I’m in so much pain and it’s only gonna get worse.. there’s only one way it will truly stop.
Idk how I’m gonna keep going at this rate

11/6/2014 6 comments

Support

by Boedesmom 11/6/2014

written by Boedesmom

Where do you go when there is no where to go but down? My feelings of hopelessness and helplessness have escalated to the point that I have convinced myself that my purpose for being has been fulfilled and anything left in life is just “fluff”.

I pray daily that Jesus will come…soon. I don’t really want to die but I don’t want to continue this perpetual cycle of disappointment and failure. If Jesus were to come, he would take us all to eternal bliss.

I have a solid education and extensive professional experience, yet I have been unemployed now for three months. The only interviews I can […]

11/6/2014 6 comments

More lost than ever

by nodirection30 11/6/2014

written by nodirection30

I am in my late twenties and feeling that there is no longer any hope. I been depressed since i was 16 and attemted only once. I seem to go through stages of being ok and relativley happy to the darkest place you can think of.

The last month i have been thinking about going on a daily basis the only think stopping me is the pain of going, some people might say you wouldnt care about that if you really want to do it, however no one wants to feel pain thats why i want the easiest way to do it.

I have massive debt, no […]

11/6/2014 3 comments

A poem of pain

by foreverunknown 11/5/2014

written by foreverunknown

I sit on the balcony,

wishing for pain.

Pain is the ultimate gain.

It makes it all real,

allows me to feel.

The dark abyss creeps closer.

I inch forward,

hoping to end it all.

Pain,

Without it i suffer more.

Without it I am nothing.

11/5/2014 0 comment

So much pain…

by empty.flesh 11/5/2014

written by empty.flesh

It’s a struggle to get through the day. Often I get off work and first thing I do is drink myself to sleep, around 4pm, it only takes me about 30 minutes and I’m asleep, good ol tequila….but the rest of my life is pain. I constantly think of suicide. I heard her voice this morning, when she came to pick up the dog, she was laughing with my roommates…perfectly fine…perfectly happy. When I wake up in tears daily. It always comes back to this. I am 24 years old, a lesbian, and I am constantly coming back to this depression. Sure there are breaks […]

11/5/2014 3 comments

The Final Entry

by GranDad 11/4/2014

written by GranDad

Such depth in words

…

Despair is nothing compared to what I live.

Just a click away.careful and close analysis of what has lead me to this dark whole in my life.

You will not regret it.

This,friend.

This is the stuff.

www.sirgrandad.blogspot.com

Finally,

Enjoy!

-Gran(^•^)Dad

11/4/2014 0 comment

I’m worthless.

by selfharm3 11/3/2014

written by selfharm3

I’m 15 years old. I just started cutting. i feel like my life isn’t really worth it anymore. i have contemplated suicide. i even looked up medications that i could overdose on. i almost committed suicide Friday morning. I’m not one of those people who justseeks attention because if you want attention, don’t go about it this way. if anyone understands pain and guilt, that’s me.

11/3/2014 4 comments

Never thought I would be here and post something

by RollingRonnie 10/31/2014

written by RollingRonnie

Hello everyone, this is my first post, I think even my first post on the internet. I have read alot of your stories and they touched and moved me deeply and brought me to tears. If in some way I could be of help to someone out there just give me a message and I will be there for you. You are not alone in this nightmare.

Now for my story, I am a 32 year old man from the Netherlands, born slighty autistic ( I got traits from Asperger). My life has always been ‘different’ because in my mind I connect the dots different and […]

10/31/2014 12 comments

The Letter, to the one that cared…

by Ghost9er 10/30/2014

written by Ghost9er

I’m sorry but, I can’t take it anymore… the nightmares get worse, my family seems to enjoy my suffering and online… things just seem to be getting worse, I can’t take it, I have no means of escaping the pain anymore…

I….. I have to end it all tomorrow, final chance for everything and everyone… Not like it’ll matter…. not like any of them will notice… :'( I’m sorry for not being good enough for you, I hope you find happiness, where I failed to provide you hope. :'( Good bye…. forever. :'(

But, please know, I didn’t want to do this to you, I’m not ending […]

10/30/2014 3 comments

No One Cares!

by Ghost9er 10/30/2014

written by Ghost9er

I should end my life, tomorrow’s the big day after all… No one will miss me, no one will care, Tomorrow is the only day I’ll have to myself, NO ONE WILL TAKE IT AWAY!

Tomorrow, I die!

Sliced wrists, Downed pills, and a rope around my neck! I’m making sure I die this time! GOOD BYE FOREVER YOU HEARTLESS MONSTERS OF THE WORLD!!!

10/30/2014 8 comments

Fuck….I just want to live!!

by RealTalk30 10/30/2014

written by RealTalk30

You ever get tired of listening to advice that leaves you stranded on your own, doing battle against the pain in the darkness? Advice like “you gotta do it for yourself and not anyone else”
“no pain, no gain”
Even phrases like “have faith” can be conflicting, lonely and long if you are truly left on your own. Depending who you are of course.
People have been shoving that shit down my throat my whole life. “Don’t do it for anyone but yourself”
“You gotta live for you”
I don’t need to explain to some of you out there, that sometimes doing it on […]

10/30/2014 17 comments

Don’t know what to do

by bubby0414 10/29/2014

written by bubby0414

Okay, so I know this is probably seen time and time after again. Some poor sap crying about how sad they are about their relationship issues. And normally I would be one of those people who would be quick to call the person out on their drama, but idk, its different for me. I’ve recently started coming out of the closet. I’m a guy btw. My parents were supportive. I’ve told a couple friends and they’ve been supportive. I’ve been dating this guy for the last 7 months and have fallen head over heals in love with him. He is so special to me. He’s […]

10/29/2014 2 comments

it’s never going to end

by lost hope 10/29/2014

written by lost hope

the pain and heartache. no one really cares your supposed to get over it. even if the pain and abuse and mistreatment continues no more crying no more tears life goes on, sure not like this

10/29/2014 1 comment

3 More Days…

by Ghost9er 10/28/2014

written by Ghost9er

I simply don’t know how to feel about this anymore… I’ve been planning this for nearly a month now… And now that my time has come, I don’t know if I”m ready… no one from my family would miss me, none of them even care about me. If anything, they hate everything about me, from the sound of my voice to the fact that I exist. I’ve already tried countless times before, why is it that this time seems so much more difficult… I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore… it doesn’t matter though, because, this time I’ve planned the whole thing out, and […]

10/28/2014 6 comments

my body, my choice

by hangingonbyathread 10/28/2014

written by hangingonbyathread

i wish everyone could see it that way…my body, my choice. if you were trapped in a hellish world wouldnt you want out?? why do i have to suffer so you dont have to? i hate myself, i hate everything about me. i am sick. i have legitimate diagnosis. why must i have to deal with them for the rest of my life?

yes there are ups and downs, but my downs are so bad and last so long the ups arent worth the pain of the downs. its my body, my choice. i should choose if i want to live or die. my life will […]

10/28/2014 7 comments

Wandering

by trojan_horse 10/28/2014

written by trojan_horse

Wandering alone at night..

..If this is where you are supposed to be

The crying..

.. the pain

Is this all worth it..

.. Having to hold & cry yourself to sleep

Where is the light..

.. in this dark and lonely planet

10/28/2014 1 comment

IVE BEEN GOING DOWN HILL OVER 3 YEARS NOW BUT RAPIDLY SINCE YESTERDAY

by owlpal 10/28/2014

written by owlpal

Where do i start eh?

I am 48 yrs old, married to my gorgeous wife Victoria. we got married in 2006, we’ve had our ups and downs liek all couples do and we have come through it because i thought we were strong.

I had major back surgery in 2011 that failed now i have disc degenerative disease throughout my spine and survive my days on large amounts of morphine just to get me walking.

My Mother passed away in Nov 2012 and i felt a part of me died too, my Father died in 2007 the day before my Birthday and that is crippling me big time. […]

10/28/2014 5 comments

meh

by darkness2light 10/27/2014

written by darkness2light

Taking fate into ones own hands is either within the concepts of courage or fear. I feel courageous at this moment of my life, unafraid of the possible judgement that lay before me. Perhaps it’s because I’m oblivious to the actual torture and loss of mercy awaiting on the other side. I never intended for my life to unravel in the way it has. So much has transpired throughout the course of the years whilst being diagnosed and at a time when I’ve found true happiness, the true symptoms arise. They have all said to be strong and to keep on fighting and although my […]

10/27/2014 6 comments

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