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pain

Feelin…..

by PeelASquid 7/28/2014

written by PeelASquid

I just wrote this for someone…….mainly how they see things looking out to the world…..

Storm in the sky,
Storm in my head.
Layin and cryin,
Tears soaking the bed.
Feelin the pressure,
Feelin the pain.
Heartache and suffering,
Call out my name.
I want to be loved,
Need someone to care.
Cant do this alone,
I need someone there.
Why so much rage,
Why so much hate.
Self destructing,
It seems it can’t wait.
Consumed by my feelings,
Consumed with the guilt.
The pain and the suffering,
Upon my life it was built.
But someone loves me,
I know that they do.
I know who […]

7/28/2014 0 comment

Again; again

by whyme336 7/28/2014

written by whyme336

Here I am writing again.
Trying again.
Feeling pain again.
Suicidal again.
Hearing voices again.
Everything is happening again.
How can I stop it again.
Is it possible again.
Will I end up in the hospital again.
Will I ever be okay again.

7/28/2014 1 comment

Disintegrated

by robban 7/27/2014

written by robban

Its like a cancer of the soul. Many years of pain and suffering, and the only thing that makes it better is bad things. I dont wanna live. I dont always wanna die. Im like in a limbo or something.

7/27/2014 3 comments

Do you wanna build a snowman

by marcusallan 7/26/2014

written by marcusallan

I feel sad all the time. I cant even watch a kids movie without thinking the fake cartoon I see on the screen is the saddest thing out. I just wanna be normal again and this pain to go away, im sick of feeling this way

7/26/2014 0 comment

Boy interrupted

by New Shoes 7/24/2014

written by New Shoes

A documentary about depression and suicide. It follows a boy from birth to his suicide. It shows how powerful depression is. He started talking about and planing his death by the age of 5 and succeeded at the age of 15. It even showed that it was multi generational in his family. For people that don’t believe, you will see how strong the pain is and the struggle to hang on to prevent pain to loved ones seems unbearable.

7/24/2014 0 comment

Surviving Suicide

by kolenczuk 7/24/2014

written by kolenczuk

I felt the need to post this…

I lost my seventeen year old daughter to suicide on May 31. She hung herself in our garage. This has devastated our family and all of her friends. We miss her so much. I know many of you feel so helpless and so sad. But please consider the pain that you will cause others by taking your own life. You are more important to your loved ones that you could ever know. Please know that they love you and will miss you dearly. Now that I no longer have my beautiful daughter in my life, I have lost my […]

7/24/2014 8 comments

My story

by mav123 7/23/2014

written by mav123

The truth is she’s a mess. Once so well put together. Once was that happy girl that smiled twenty four- seven. The girl that had great friends and was nice to everyone. She was complete with joy. That girl faded. That girl doesn’t exist anymore. A gloomy depressed girl now exists. Battling for her life every day. Battling with life. She went from going out with friends to staying up all night crying. She shut down. No words spoken. But she woke up the next day and painted that smile on her face. Look in her eyes and you will see a world filled with […]

7/23/2014 3 comments

I want to fade away…

by Serra42 7/22/2014

written by Serra42

This time i thought everything was ok..i thought it was all going to be better…but here i am again..scared of everyone that looks at me..wondering what the hell they think…thinking they think i am insane… am i insane? i feel like everyone is watching me all the time..watching what i do… judging me..my logical mind knows this is not true..people have so much more to think about in the day..not everything is about me..but why is that how i feel..why do i feel like they are all judging me for every action i take..no matter how small… good or bad..

i feel like everything i do […]

7/22/2014 0 comment

24% battery life away

by miraclehealer 7/21/2014

written by miraclehealer

I’m currently stuck in another country that is not mine. Initially didn’t want to go on this trip as I am having depression. But I didn’t want to let friend A go alone with a group of people that he wants close to. However, depression strikes and I just couldn’t take it. Last night, I spent quite some time in the toilet crying about it and he couldn’t understand hence he didn’t do anything. Today, I found out that friend B told this friend A to totally ignore me. I’m currently out of the hotel room with nothing but a phone. No passport to rent […]

7/21/2014 5 comments

don’t use gasoline

by gossamer 7/20/2014

written by gossamer

So I doused myself in gasoline today, because I was having another of my apoplectic fits. I did this right in front of my girlfriend, after cutting my forearm with a sawzall blade and scratching my throat with the same.

I guess I just kept driving myself to up the ante. I was working – with lead paint? maybe that matters. Fits of apoplexy are nothing new to me… I was scraping lead paint. The guy I’d given $70 bucks to to help me with my yard hadn’t showed up. Just a down on his luck hobo who was going to help me clear weeds, kept […]

7/20/2014 5 comments

Please Read This..

by M_Broken 7/18/2014

written by M_Broken

:'( :'( :'( I don’t know how to start from but the pain is killing inside me..my granny woke up at 5 in the morning and came over to my house just to convince me to go to school..she was ill but still she came..what if i lose her? i turned her down…i despise myself…but i had no other option..i dont want to go to school.
i feel like dying..the guilt is killing me… :'( :'( :'(

7/18/2014 13 comments

by LetItGo 7/17/2014

written by LetItGo

had huge fight with sister
anger resurfaced
pain grew
hurt more
insulted
almost pushed down stairs
hit
slapped
punched
shoved around
lots of tears
35 minute call
tears
silent treatment
broken

7/17/2014 3 comments

A little poem

by Pathetic 7/16/2014

written by Pathetic

It has no title cause I can’t think of one. Here it is.

I tried to figure out

Why my heart is full of doubt

Once I felt love, then I was betrayed

Felt life crumble, and begin to fade

Paranoid, my mind filled with lies

who I am I began to despise

so I took myself and I hurled

my heart to the ground, and shattered my world

I became nothing, no love, no pain

Just held razor blades to my vein

I cut deeper and deeper, just to feel

till pain and pleasure became real

but got carried away, and cut too deep

at last my friends, I can sleep

7/16/2014 0 comment

Alone (part 2)

by Broken_Soul 7/15/2014

written by Broken_Soul

Like all humans the boy had limits.Limits to what he could do.but also limits to what he could take and after all the time that had passed he finally understood one fact.He would always be alone.the boy had tried harder than most people would have…he tried harder than he should have….he gave up.he was done.he decided to not care anymore.he cut himself off.he showed nothing.that darkness in his heart had once again warped him.his face grew blank.no smiling.no more crying.nothing…he gave in to the lonliness.he kept it all inside.his feelings of pain and resentment and sadness…he decided to close them in his heart and pretend […]

7/15/2014 1 comment

Whats the point

by dani12 7/14/2014

written by dani12

“Things will get better” is what people usually say when you’re depressed.I don’t see that happening I see things getting worse.I tell my “friends” i just feel like dying.They don’t even ask whats wrong,They just tell me to not give up.I have all these feelings and things trapped inside of me.I figure if I go they wouldn’t care.School is worse I like to be one of those non social kids the more I get away the more noticeable I am. I’m fine with people calling me weirdo no one is normal but being called the devil,Satan,Satanic because of my music and my style really gets […]

7/14/2014 2 comments

Pardon me….

by RealTalk30 7/14/2014

written by RealTalk30

Excuse me…I seem to have left my pain laying around here somewhere..have you seen it? It’s black and fowl and twisted and I just can’t seem to hang on to it anymore! lol call me butter fingers if you must but it keeps on slipping away!! 😛 lmao!! Anyways..if you see it, it’s labeled “loathing of a lost and forgotten soul”. It might be walking around aimlessly somewhere here, just thought I’d check again. Let me know if you find it’s sorry little bitter ass! lol
Thanks! 😉

7/14/2014 2 comments

Giving life the proverbial finger

by tyenna 7/14/2014

written by tyenna

Life is shit. We all know it. And painful. I don’t recommend killing yourself because it messes up anyone close to you. My wife killed herself nearly 3 years ago and I am still dealing with the trauma. What I recommend is not having children.

The cathars of 10th 11th and 12th century languedoc believed that conception was the greatest of all sins. I agree. If life is shit we should refuse to replicate ourselves.

The best way to give life the proverbial finger, is to see it through to its bitter natural end, and all the while refuse to give it what it really wants from […]

7/14/2014 4 comments

unbearable

by numb6490 7/14/2014

written by numb6490

Cant bear to live anymore. Im in so much pain. There are times where I silently lay n pray for death while im trying to sleep. But then I feel so guilty for feeling that way I feel so selfish. cuz I have a 3 year old daughter n I cant even imagine putting her thru the pain of having a mom that commited suicide I dnt want to emotional lu hurt her or damage her. What do I do

7/14/2014 3 comments

lol @ this

by Kailee3 7/14/2014

written by Kailee3

I feel insane, like i’ll never be happy. Even though i strive so hard to be happy. Yet i feel as if there is fire in my skin, and i am drowning within’. I can’t trust nor really open up to people.. i can feel them judging.. no one understands the concept of depression around here.. they just think you are ‘sick’ .. that’s all you’ll hear “She’s sick, look at her wrist” “She needs to be put away” .. But they don’t get the constant darkness taking over your mind.. Out of all honesty if i were to do it.. I’d make it look […]

7/14/2014 11 comments

My pervy , abused , drink and drugged life leading to my suicide attempts.

by NoSelfRespect 7/13/2014

written by NoSelfRespect

NoSelfRespect

Well my first memories where of nursery school my babysitter use to take us.I was a boy with big teeth and a speech […]

7/13/2014 6 comments

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