hi, i am 20 years old and i’m currently studying overseas from my country. the first time i wanted to kill myself was when i was in the 4th grade (8 years old). and since then, every time i got a problem, i always thinking of suicide. i used to cut my wrist and taking sleeping pills when i was in junior high school. i have lots of problems with my family, school, and sometimes boyfriend. i just moved here 3 months ago and every night before i go to bed i always pray and ask to God what am i doing here, in this […]
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Perfume
I want to look nice–really nice on Monday. Maybe not, like, wear a dress, ’cause it’s way too cold. But I still want to be noticed. I’m hoping that I’ll have Health next week, instead of P.E. If I do, then I can dress up easily. Â But my friend just text me saying that we don’t, so I guess I’ll just have to improvise. I don’t want to wear makeup, or if I do, not very much. Any ways to impress a guy with the way you look (Without looking like a slut) I just like to see the look on people’s faces when I […]
I threw everything into the river, everything that represents him. A gift for valentines day he gave me, a bracelet, a love not, a comb he left at my place, only little things which I still had. They had to go. I went, I threw them one by one, banishing the memories that they were bound too. Then the last thing, the box.
I call it the box to those who actually care, that know about it. The box is about 20cm by 7cm by 5cm, small, brown, smells of worn perfume and nights out. Inside, 4 blood soaked tissues, a pair of scissors, a suicide […]
I Have posted atleast twice on this website and I have told complete internet strangers my my deepest darkest thoughts  that I havent even told my friends and I feel comfortable  posting even when I am rarely happy
Today I was excited for the walking dead Tv show to come back on the zombies calm me for some weird reason but anyway I watch my baby nephew for 12 hours 6 days a week and i get paid 150 every two weeks for watching him on top of that since i have no job I am expected to cook and clean the home at the end of the day there […]
,i only give people what they ask for,,but then you see these cold ass bitches roming this planet that are rude and mean toeveryone. people they never saw before, mean nomatter what,, they just walk past a random person and have to say the meanest shit possible,why?what is the point of being a ***** all the time? every second of every day??and some people iv met,i dont know what could make them such a mean cruel *****,iv been through pure hell,and atleast i dont try to ruine a random strangers day,, society is fucked up, and how are you sapost to think or look at […]