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un RE PAIR ABLE

by MYnameISdren 3/17/2015

written by MYnameISdren

I went from cruising around looking for that 1 and only 1 chance to arise just to come back to the same ghetto, the same situation, the same apt., the same chair, the same thing on the table.

So instead, i pick up this cell phone that ive come to HATE just as much as I HATE MYSELF!

The only difference is…there isnt ANYONE else to HATE ME! There isnt ANYONE else that would ANGERLY-HAPPILY wanna throw me up against the wall AS MUCH AS I WANNA THROW THIS PHONE, and watch ME EXPLODE INTO A THOUSAND PIECES just to fall on the floor… completely and utterly […]

3/17/2015 0 comment

Fogged Memories

by Matt 3/11/2015

written by Matt

I’m sat in my room right now just singing out loud and it takes me back to every time someone has caught me doing this.

When I’m gone I hope you all think back to these moments

My sister’s reaction would be to turn her music up louder than me.

My brother would complain about wailing cats.

There we those two friends who’d come in and sing with me.

Or the one who’d just smile and dance along.

And the one who wanted to jam and mash up my song with his.

And sure, some would complain and tell me to shut up.

But there were those who’d let me finish and then […]

3/11/2015 0 comment

In pain

by nate2 2/25/2015

written by nate2

I met my beautilful girlfriend at work, I have been single for 13 years so I could raise my 2 girls, they are older now so I wanted to find someone. I loved everything about my gf, beautiful, inteligent, her speacial smile just for me, she called me babe or love. She has 3 kids, was in an abusive marriage, last 3 boyfriends cheated on her, I told her I loved her with all my heart and would never hurt her or cheat on her. I would pick her and her baby up in morning, drop baby at babysitter and drive us to work, pick […]

2/25/2015 6 comments

Anyone have a memorable experience with the passing of a pet friend?

by Mizuki1000 2/4/2015

written by Mizuki1000

Today I buried my dog. My best friend an only child like me could’ve had. I had to dig the hole and put her in it. The thing that made me so pissed was the fact my grandmother would not help me pick her up and tried to make me bend her legs to get her to fit in the hole I told her was small. I had to move her body to the side of the hole to make it bigger. My grandma did not tell me she wasn’t acting normal. I ate breakfast, and played on a computer while my dog was dying.

My […]

2/4/2015 20 comments

Only a matter of when

by deadvibrations 1/7/2015

written by deadvibrations

Vibrations communicating the inner world of my soul

As it reaches out your ear runs towards the door.

Absorbed through the wood of the floor, muted by the rubber of your sole.

Dogs only see the food I have in my hand, but nevering caring when I fail.

Distractions are luxury I can never afford; when I can it’s always an empty shelf.

Let’s go for that walk, take us to remember the past, the place I broke the half filled glass.

Remind me of all those scars, down to every last shard, pick them up to reflect the moonless nights.

How long till I bleed out from a fragment I will […]

1/7/2015 0 comment

On the road to January 5th.

by IndigoMasquerade 12/19/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

I shouldn’t have to pick up after my fiance and his friends and they still disrespect me. I’m not their housewife, sister, mother, or anything. I also shouldn’t have to be afraid that his friends are going to just barge through the door at any moment every day without knocking, even though I told my fiance that I’m very uncomfortable with that.

12/19/2014 10 comments

it happened.

by schema 12/15/2014

written by schema

not in the form i thought it would. i got the A in math, I got all As. but yesterday i fainted after taking a shower, it was the wildest thing in the world, it’s never happened before. and that part wasn’t that bad. it was after going to the hospital (everyone told me that i should go, i didn’t want to be that person who says no when everyone else is saying yes) that i realized how terrible it was. i had no one to come and pick me up. i have no friends, and the people that i know with cars…well, i assumed […]

12/15/2014 1 comment

Not good enough

by dysfunctional2290 11/19/2014

written by dysfunctional2290

I see every single imperfection that comes along with me…hopeing that maybe one day I’ll find a way to fix it…but I know I’ll never be good enough….not for anyone else but myself….I’ll always find something else to pick on…

11/19/2014 2 comments

Triggers

by argh 10/26/2014

written by argh

Right now I’m about to do one of the things that’s going to affect me for the rest of the day and on into next week. Yard work. Sounds dumb, right?

I’m going to go out there for a couple hours to pick up the leaves and the entire time there’s going to be a nagging feeling that the neighbors are watching me out their windows and telling their spouses something like “look at wtf he’s doing. He doesn’t know wtf he’s doing, he’s doing it wrong. How the fuck could he not know how do it it? I mean it’s about time anyways because I’m […]

10/26/2014 5 comments

Setting in…

by Deathy058 10/22/2014

written by Deathy058

I am not certain what to type here.

A few years ago these tendencies, these thoughts, would feel foreign to me. To put it mildly, life was pretty good. I had a significant other who wanted to marry me, I was a straight A college student, and I had a broad pick of graduate programs to further my degree.

Now?

Enter the cliche story; she left me for a friend, college ended into a dead end midnight job, and graduate school did not work out. After diving in the deep end into jobs just to stay afloat for the past year, I am now left jobless(at 26), and I had […]

10/22/2014 12 comments

End Of My World Party!

by liesoppose 10/13/2014

written by liesoppose

so here I am, beginning the end. Or shall I say someone I’m imagining in my head :). This guy is ready, prepared himself that rope, tied the knot, and did his prep work. Yes I think he is ready.

He needs to do this.

He’s got 1 Oxycodone 30mg, a dozen hydrocodon 7.5/325, some tina, and about a gram of weed. He will probably pick up some more weed later.

He plans to party with Tina. Then when the time comes pop the oxy + water extraction hydro. At some point after that when he peaks he will sit down and take his vacation.

10/13/2014 6 comments

death, i long for you

by death bunny 9/28/2014

written by death bunny

death,
love me.

first time I saw you was in class. i looked at you from the other side of the room, hoping our eyes will meet. guess you didn’t notice.
second time we bumped into each other in the street. you asked what’s up. i was too overwhelmed to answer.
STUPID! STUPID! i later said to myself.
third time i went to your house and rang the bell. i heard your footsteps and fled. i wasn’t ready.

i often like to think that when you opened the door you caught a glimpse of me with one leg in the woods.
death,
i’m so so scared to […]

9/28/2014 2 comments

The clock is ticking …

by Emt girl 9/18/2014

written by Emt girl

I think I am almost ready… I almost let it slip today that I have a plan. No one noticed though all I ever hear is have faith. Well it’s too late for that… I have to pick a date I think that will help push me to get everything ready. I wonder how long it will take for anyone to notice I am gone.

Just need to put my goodbyes in order…I have to say goodbye…

9/18/2014 3 comments

First post.

by jac 9/9/2014

written by jac

First post here, or in public at all about how I’m really feeling…

I’ve been depressed and suicidal for years. Been on lots of different meds, admitted and discharged a few times with no improvements, and a few failed suicide attempts too. I’m at a point where I’m seriously looking for something effective, but hopefully not leave a gruesome scene – I don’t want family to find my body hanging when getting home from work or for some poor sod having to pick up pieces of me quickly to keep busy commuters happy…

9/9/2014 3 comments

really struggling today

by overit20 9/2/2014

written by overit20

I haven’t been able to stop the tears from rolling today. Driving out to pick up my kids I almost slammed into a semi full of fuel but didn’t and then had a second chance to pull right out in front of one doing 70mph. I’m sure that would’ve done the trick and it would have been an accident so my kids would still get the life insurance. But I hadn’t seen my babies for a week and I couldn’t leave them without one last hug and kiss goodbye. Today I confided in the guy that seems to be the root of my demons only […]

9/2/2014 8 comments

Just Another Lousy Poem

by KissOfDeath 8/20/2014

written by KissOfDeath

It’s hard to pick yourself up,

after you fallen.

It’s hard to “cheer up,”

when you have felt this way for years.

It’s had to “move on”

when your life is a stop sign.

8/20/2014 2 comments

I Did.

by LetItGo 8/13/2014

written by LetItGo

You know when I was depressed I always had this thought.
I always had this dream, this expectation, this thought.
That a person would come into my life and pick up my broken pieces.
That someone would help me off the ground and get me walking again.
Someone would wipe away my tears and dust me off and hold my hand.
That a human being would sit down with me and just hug me.
That someone would help me calm down and stop me from punching the wall and bruising myself.
Well guess what.
I’m fine now.
I am recovered and still recovering.
No one […]

8/13/2014 3 comments

when your low sing screem or play

by why i dont no 8/11/2014

written by why i dont no

when you as low as you can get

in a pit were no one knows

theres no way out

pick up your gutar and play

pick up your voce and sing

pick up you mike and screem

hit the death beat on the drums

let the music fill your sole wether it screems sings or plays let it fill you

8/11/2014 4 comments

Why?

by danid 8/9/2014

written by danid

Why does this happen to me? Why does this happen to us. I’m tired of the scars uprising, but I cant seem to hide. Love ain’t the answer. Death won’t pick up the phone when I call and all I ask is why me? Do people really care or is it all a show we are supposed to give into? My souls been annihilated & death still won’t take me… Where did I go wrong? Was being born not supposed to be? Is this punishment for my parents mistake? I don’t fucking get it one bit. They gone and everything in my life is gone […]

8/9/2014 3 comments

Exile. party?

by Bisban 6/15/2014

written by Bisban

The saga is dead. All the men for themselves.
This is what’s left when faith is dead.
Walking in white, quietly in the dark.
The spades encloses the heart.
Stooped, under goddamn degradation.
Commander of the faith, the saga is dead.
The party from death to life. I’m still down, pick up a few other.
Though, I really am vowed. Steppingstone to be simply.
Listening to trip-hop, what’s up?

6/15/2014 1 comment

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