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Pretending

by Sunnygirl1 9/10/2013

written by Sunnygirl1

Right now, I’m 20 hours away from the rest of my family and my friends. I’m taking online classes and getting new medication since I can’t get medication where I live.

It’s not very fun. I have therapy sessions every other day, doctor’s appointments, and I have my depression, paranoia, bipolarity, ptsd and ocd to deal with.

Guess what though? This is a vacation for me. When I go back to my school in November, the vacation’s over. When I go back, I have to plaster that smile back on my face. I’ll have to talk to my friends, pretend everything’s alright. It’s really exhausting to have […]

9/10/2013 3 comments

Stuck in the Past.. (I’m back)

by BrooklynBoxx 8/24/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

Is it normalâ€¦ to look in the mirror and not see yourself in the reflection?

Having been so caught up in everyoneâ€™s â€œexpectationâ€ of you. To have completely lost yourself trying to be what everyone else wanted you to be?

Every night you dream of this life, you could NEVER have, but every day you long for it.

You have all these hopesâ€¦ dreamsâ€¦ ideasâ€¦ that you want to fulfill but just not enough time to do so.

Then you go to sleepâ€¦ still having yet to achieve anything extraordinary in your life, waking up in the morning realizing your one day closer to […]

8/24/2013 4 comments

Dead

by XxemofuckxXD 8/10/2013

written by XxemofuckxXD

Clash into dust into ash into lust
with another ways dream and another mans dean
without a word suffer with a counter cost cutter
with no aspiration inside this temptation
into but oblivion with bottles of insidium
quite opposite the transaction
of dying plaster reaction
into nothingness evolve with a starlit twice revolved

SORRY ABOUT ALL OF THE POEMS ITS HOW I EXPRESS MYSELF

8/10/2013 5 comments

I don’t know.

by walkthisworldalone 7/13/2013

written by walkthisworldalone

Hi, nobody’s even gonna read this but I guess it’s better to let it out.

I’m Lara, I live in the UK. I have a loving family, good friends and a pretty great life. I have a lot more than I need and i’m very grateful for what I have. But something just isn’t right. For two years now, i’ve been having thoughts of suicide and have been inflicting pain on myself. I don’t feel the pain anymore. Around the time I started having these thoughts, my friend was diagnosed with slight depression and bipolar disorder but her mood swings were far less severe than mine. […]

7/13/2013 3 comments

Good morning?

by Ifeelsoalone 8/23/2012

written by Ifeelsoalone

So I had me an hour of sleep, awesome. Got to plaster on some emotions so I can blend into this dark landscape that’s my life and carry on one more day.

8/23/2012 2 comments

I found some of my writings

by CJMudd 5/6/2012

written by CJMudd

Another lonesome night spent lamenting unknowable if’s and but’s. The walls are coming down, crumbling, slight cracks snake up from the ground, chips of plaster abandon there post and tumble hard, downwards. I sit, watching, and the last shudders of life drift out to rejoin the ether.

I sit and smile, an effect distilled from the pleasure of both watching this event and feeling it. I amÂ a pathetic husk of a human being, an irretrievably broken man, endlessly pestered by apathetic and cowardly thoughts, of means to escape my open cage. I am institutionalized, I fear.

A throbbing vein mocks me as I contemplate a sharp edge. […]

5/6/2012 1 comment

If Something Can Make You Smile

by worrystone 1/9/2012

written by worrystone

I guess I’m suicidal. My stomach churns just putting that label next to my name. I think about it all the time. I think about all the things wrong. I get sucked into that black hole where you just keep going down and down. And then I find myself on facebook in an immature poke-battle with one of my best friends (who I also happen to have been hopelessly in love with for years) and I can’t wipe the smile off my face as I watch the notification pop up again and again. A real smile, not the stupid fake one I plaster on my […]

1/9/2012 5 comments