Tonight I can’t help it.
I’ve been trying to avoid all these thoughts that keep running through my head. But I can’t stop them. They keep intruding.
I’m scared of myself. I’m afraid if I’m left alone I’ll let these thoughts take over. That I won’t be able to hold back anymore. That I’ll finally go through with ending my life. I can’t take it anymore.
I don’t want to be left alone by myself. I’ll be lost if I am. Save me. Someone please just save me from myself. Otherwise I’ll truly disappear.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHqo2FDJSU0I feel like nothing is going anywhere… nothing is getting any better. A year ago I moved to my father’s to finally get away from my mother, sister, and my mother’s boyfriend, because they were pushing me to the edge. They’ve always been “there” for me, at things like competitions for band, and driving me to school events… but that is pretty much where it ends.
My mother loves me, and I hate seeing her upset, but when my sister is around, there is always a pointless fight started by her, and I get to the point of just wanting to jump off the […]
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