damb,why do people decide to give you reasons to trust them until you trust them enough just to the point you are actually thinking(you know what, i might feel like i trust this person, mabey they aint fake after all)then they go and pull the same shit everyone els does, and people wonder why i am the way i am,its always the people you least expect,so why trust anyone in this world,my heart just got as cold as it can get,i had a little love left in my heart after 21 years,but now i literally feel nothing,   last night i was praying to god(if my […]
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Earlier today in the town right next to where I live, a kid committed suicide. He was only 17. I went on facebook today and a “Friend” of mine was acting entirely childish about the entire thing and posting comments about how “if he was gonna off himself he should have done it with a gun or hanging himself at least”. How dare someone. How can someone even begin to make a comment like that on such a serious and awful topic? I didn’t know the person, but I can only imagine how much pain he must have been feeling to resort to that. He […]
Hello everyone. I’m female, 17 y.o. – actually i’m turning 18 in 2 days. This is my first post. I’ve read the posts in this site before, but it wasn’t until now i decided to write something. It’s not the first time i’ve been thinking about suicide, as you can tell. Since the age of 11 i’ve been depressed most of the time, and i think i’ve forgotten what “joy” even means. I’ve never gone too far in my attempts, i’ve stood on the edge countless times, i’ve tied so many nooses and climbed high building, and i’ve actually prayed, i’ve prayed day and night […]
I’m wishing every night
On that “magical” time of day
When the clock strikes11 past 11
I’m wishing for the pain to go away.
I’m wishing for Christmas this year
Not to go awry,
I’m thinking of all the world’s problems
I’m asking God why.
What did they do to be bullied
Or to be given cancer
Why all my desperate prayers
Never quite seem to get answered.
I’m thinking “Why me?”
Then instantly regretting it
Thinking of the other kids
With death and hunger setting in.
They have no food
And they must starve
And I, a selfish man,
Think that my life is hard?
But I cant help wishing
Wanting a perfect life
A life free of the pain
The heartache, the strife.
And all along
My most […]
I’m not suicidal, but I used to be. I wish I knew five years ago what I know now, and I feel like I have to share it– So I’m sorry if this sounds preachy, because I really don’t mean for it to be.
When I was five my sister, Jen, killed herself with an intentional drug overdose. A decade later I was thinking about doing the same. I’d sit on the floor of my room every day after school and try to think of reasons not to end my life, with no luck. A couple of times I held a knife to my wrist, even […]
I’m 19 years old. Just finished my freshman year of college, double major in Political Science and Communications with a French minor. Straight A’s. My dad works at the church, my mom is a special education teacher, I have a brother who’s 15. I’ve had a boyfriend who loves me and who I love with all my heart for 7 months. I guess that all seems pretty perfect.
I began feeling symptoms of depression in 7th grade. Of course, I didn’t know what it was that I was feeling. When it all fell apart for me, though, began 3 days before my 14th birthday, 8th grade, […]
When I think of myself more often then not I just want to puke. I used to be so happy and free spirited and I feel high school and just recent events in my life is ruining me. I am more cynical, I dont get along with parents, I dont have a 4.0, I feel fat and ugly…i am a let down to my amazing little sister and my life is just one big treadmill. Its like ive climbed on and cant get off. I just have to keep running because I cant stop or I will get flung off and I dont know how to […]
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