So my depression started when i was bullied severely in middle school and summer camp, people really don’t know how much this messes up a person. I became introverted and started thinking of my own death constantly at a young age , to the people that say it gets better i just have to laugh. Because now that I am older I found out that I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, and not to mention I am a 30 year old unsuccessful virgin that also has erectile dysfunction. It seems that God is just laughing at me just like the builles did when I was a […]
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Don’t grow up. If you are grown up already, consider a change of profession before it’s too late. It’s boring and you’re not allowed to have fun. Ever. People think you’re weird if they see you playing in the snow while wearing a business suit. Need I go on?
Life is for living. That should offer all anyone needs, but when you start realizing that the world is a complicated place, and nobody actually knows anything, and the easy answers don’t add up to much more than hot-air, it’s easy to forget what living is. Look at squirrels. They’re living. They know how to live like […]
I, like most people here, am looking for answers that we all know don’t exist. Â Despite that we all continue, we push on with blind faith, hoping, wishing, praying that the answers will just suddenly appear before us. Â But I have lost my faith and hope and my wishes and prayers go without response.
I am now 45, and I have been struggling with depression ever since I was 17. Â It has been a long and exhausting trip. Â It has caused me to lose all of my friends, resulted in me being hospitalized for a total of 3 months between high school and college. Â Â And […]
to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m doing on this site but i’m ust gonna go with it. I’m not trying to sway anyone into my thinking or anything this is just my own experiences and opinions. So I’ve read a few posts and stuff and it’s kind of strange but i feel like i can relate. People are saying stuff like “oh you won’t do it” and stuff like that but ppl will, they always do and that’s what’s wrong with this site. you shouldn’t test ppl. I’m just hoping to get some advice on how to kill this shit before myself. […]
I don’t know whats important in my life, what i want , what i’m looking for :E I have cool job with a very good salary and future opportunities, so i need to improve my skills and knowledge more and more but.. : / sometimes i’m Ok and I don’t care about such kind of a things, but often I have long depressions and wishes to die.. I don’t know what’s missing in my life, why am i so different, I don’t even get on with someone they all are at most liers, fools or trying to be fool or something :/ and that makes me to hate […]
I’ve never posted here before… and aside from a few people I don’t talk about this, but I just don’t know if I can keep going on.
I feel miserable all the time. I feel like a pathetic loser. I spend so much of my time pretending to be fine that I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I wonder if I deserve to feel like this. is there something intrinsically bad about me? Am I a terrible person?
There’s nothing objectively wrong about my life. 2/3 of the world is worse off than me, so I wonder “what right do I have to feel like this?” […]
Not even sure why I’m posting here. I guess I want to know if anyone feels the same as me, what do I do etc.
I basically can’t seem to handle life. I was booted from home when I was 14. Apparently a bad situation with neighbours caused us to move when I was 11 and according to my mother this unsettled me in my life. I was a stable, well achieving girl before that.
Now I am 32. I have had strings of bad relationships, one after the other. Ending for reasons which may or may not have been my […]
Right now I feel like I should just get rid of myself, not only for my sake, but for everyone else’s. My parents are pressuring me into studying law, and I hate it. I’ve had to move from my home city to study it, and there is so much pressure on me to pass everything that I feel like my mind is going to explode. I’ve tried talking to my parents about how much I don’t want to be in this city and about how much I hate law, but they just keep telling me that I’m “wasting the opportunities in front of me”, and […]
It’s coming up on the big day and for a little while I was actually able to forget about it…found meaning in painting again, in witnessing my younger siblings’ awesome potential and magical ability to just be happy. A beautiful couple weeks without any physical pain. Then everything rushed back in. Can’t paint, can’t write, can’t cook, can barely open doors. Nobody knows what it is and nothing has helped. Undiagnosable pain in my hands since I was 16. Â Nothing makes me feel as hopeless as this. Not knowing that I will never find love with a girl, never have babies or finish school, never […]