I’m reaching out for help. But I can’t find any. Cutting gets worse than ever before. And this feeling of hopelessness and grief as well, my anger is out of control but my parents in contrast desperately to control every single thing in my life. I’m getting crazy here. I need to change my damn surrounding, buy there is no way I could…
You’re most likely wondering why I so boldly asked for you to read this post. Well, I did so because I have something to say that I believe will benefit you, no matter if this site applies to you or not.
I’ve had an unbelievable amount of personal experiences in my life that in reality could have shattered me from the start but instead, here I am writing this […]
i am gone, i am condemned
i am small, effortlessly
(i am dying — effortlessly)
there is very little left my bones
are here and go unnoticed — why
is the beauty passed over
if human eyes
are drawn to beauty why
are my hip and collar bones ignored
by you in bed and out
you do not look, you do not see —
you do not care
but you should.
if you care that i breathe you should care about my bones
they are my handle on the world — i hold
my hips to stay grounded
i am trying not to fall
and […]
email me if you need me, I would love to listen to your stories and just offer a listening ear without judgment because trust me when I say I understand completely. Email: splostgirl@gmail.com
I wanted to say thank you.
The community here has been really supportive in comments and I didn’t have the chance respond. I tried to kill myself and I thought my failure was weakness. Your responses helped. Thank you for reaching out. I feel like everything is falling apart and chaotic, but having SP has been a relief. I feel like nobody else really understands. I’ve been reading here for a long time before even posting so I understand a lot of people are experiencing hard times. Maybe not the same hardship but at least it helps heing able to understand what’s going on. This […]
Someone I love nearly died a week ago from today. I had a person that I developed a friendship with the past year and a half. They helped me out a lot, and quite honestly they surprised me. But when I was in the emergency room and I called them and texted them that I needed them I got no answer. They never bothered to see how I was doing or what had happened. But they had the time to get on social media but couldn’t bother to reply to me. I almost lost someone I loved and I was alone there was no one […]
A while ago I made the commitment to myself that if I can not change my state of mind, my hate of myself, and find the release needed to deal with this pain… I would get what I always wanted for my birthday.
Have been working really hard at being mindful of my thoughts. Why I feel that way, what causes it, and who is the biggest influence in my life.
Reaching out, puts so much on that person I love, how can they be honest?!? Know my thoughts good and bad, and know what needs to change, but who I am won’t allow it.
Can’t help but […]
I really don’t feel right posting to something like this. I’ve been in a mood like this many times before, and it’s always completely unsolicited. I have no reason to be depressed – it just happens. I’ve considered reaching out for help or something like that but every time I search up something like this, I see all these stories about people who have serious issues in their lives – child abuse and horrible things like that. I don’t have anything like that at all. The only “circumstantial” reason for my depression is loneliness, which is completely caused by myself. I think I’ve recently gotten to […]
I really feel somewhat desperate to kill myself right now… but I know I won’t… Often times I think about hanging myself or electrocution. I never follow through though. Sometimes I want to be alone yet I crave to be understood and not be so god damn alone…. Idk I do have some friends but I have the most trouble reaching out to people. I honestly believe they wouldnt understand what I’m going through or what I’ve gone through……… I just hope I can keep going and living…. I’ve come to several conclusions to help myself but I never tried them. 1) help someone else […]
Whenever someone is suicidal, or self harms, the question people most commonly ask is “Why?” The question they should really be asking is “Why not?”
Everyone else in the world–normal people, those who can function on a daily basis–has a reason why not (even if they don’t realize it.) They have friends, a career, art, music, something that makes their lives good enough to keep going. I don’t. I never have. The last time I attempted was almost three years ago. Since then I’ve been searching for a reason “Why not?” but I can’t find it.
I’ve been thinking about trying again. This Friday I have an […]
family and friends repeat the same words, “itll get better, itll pass with time, this is just temporary” but it isnt, they dont understand how much pain ive been in, and when i get up to do something about my sadness im told im crazy, why would i do that, maybe i am crazy, but im trying yo find my happiness, what im doing now, the journey i took over the holiday week, i may not come back alive, but i am reaching out and trying to grasp my happiness, wish me luck, if this is my last post then that means i did not […]
I have a long life story for somebody my age (19). It is streaked with bullieng, harsh words and judgement. I can’t talk about that now. It will make me feel worse.
My mum is going to push me over the edge. A few weeks ago I self harmed really badly because of how far she took things. Screaming screaming. Calling me names.
I have spent the past few hours looking up ways to kill myself, and I landed up here. I’m not too sure if it will help. I’m not too sure what else I can do to help myself, to prevent myself from falling […]