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Failed…Again.

by Blake SinBad 6/23/2014

written by Blake SinBad

Hey guys, it’s been a while. Just thought I’d update about my shitty life.

Well, the night before the last day of school was…interesting. I know I had tried to kill myself in the past. Multiple times. But this time…I could feel it. I felt calm. I felt ready. My head was clear and my decision had been made…My rents were out in the garage doing whatever and I was inside alone. I grabbed a total of 63 aspirin (I know probably could have grabbed something better) and downed at least 13 or 14 of them. I had made sure to read the bottle and it […]

6/23/2014 9 comments

by Kallian 6/21/2014

written by Kallian

Just told my current manager that I was ready to hang myself, but I think that he thought I was just making a statement, seeing as I was dealing with a difficult customer. He even said “I’ll join you”. Lol

6/21/2014 0 comment

I’m ready to stop crying for help

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/13/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

It’s like I’m destined to feel this desperate and guilty my whole life. Jesus please save me, help me, show me, do something to let me know you’re there and not just a story for us to feel good about. I want to meet you when I die, not a black void.

6/13/2014 10 comments

not going to be alone forever

by Tokey 6/11/2014

written by Tokey

i shouldnt ask this retorical question…. Â but would you be mad if i killed myself?

to be honest, i think im ready. Â nothing more will come of my life. Â i wont ever be happy, ive realised…. Â so the is no point…

my goals just keep going to shit and i decide on something lesser… Â to the point where i dont with to be happy anymore, i just wished to end the fruitless pursuit of happyness…. Â and now… Â i wish i can end this…

i cant do this anymore and im sorry if i dissapoint you… Â sorry if im wasting my voice or whatever you think it is that […]

6/11/2014 0 comment

odd one out.

by Grayskies 6/10/2014

written by Grayskies

Everyone sees me as the “happy person” ready to cheer anyone up, but what they dont see is what im truly feeling broken, damaged, hurt, depressed, useless etc.Â I dont fit like everyone else , im just like that puzzle peice that never fits in any spotÂ because it wasnt meant to be there in the first place.

“im trying to find the world that a belong to, its just not this one..im just passing through..”

6/10/2014 7 comments

sunny days

by nias 6/10/2014

written by nias

Depression is such an awful thing, I sit here looking through my window at the warm sunny day outside, at the people walking past in summery clothes, happy and content with their lives, I want to join them and yet, I struggle to get up out of bed, I struggle to get ready, let alone go out, all I have is an emptiness within me best suited to the cold; yes, I feel it most on warm sunny days.

6/10/2014 2 comments

by Bisban 6/1/2014

written by Bisban

Jesus f***. Seraphim. Skull and the bullet.
Uzi’s and machine guns. Let me join the native tribes.
Get ready for Armageddon. F***, America. The world.
ThereÂ are no rules. F*** it in oblivion. Where do I go.
Get a pad off, somewhere. I have personal monthly income.
Somewhere beautiful, to go before we die. But where.
The skeleton does not walk. West minister, I need to get the f*** out of here.
Who the f*** is gonna give me a spot. The chance to feel oblivion.
Somewhere beautiful, but where. Anyone?

6/1/2014 1 comment

2 kinds of people…

by Stain 6/1/2014

written by Stain

There are those who die before they’re ready. And there are those who are ready before they die.

Timing is the only problem. I’ve been ready to die for at least 20 years but it hasn’t happened. On the other hand somewhere in the world, someone got hit by a bus and killed 20 years before she would’ve accomplished her life’s work. Oopsie. Life’s a ***** like that.

The best you can do is decide when it’s time to die and immediately make it happen. Those are the only true winners in this world.

6/1/2014 1 comment

Suicide

by thelosteyes 5/27/2014

written by thelosteyes

As I sit here writing this all I can think about is the medication I want to overdose on. I’m a very easy person to talk to, I’ve been taken advantage of and at this point I’m really ready to be done. Life as I know it could quickly end. I’m 16 and have been to hell. My parents caught me my first attempt and thus putting me in therapy because they said I had lost it. Â How can I make it stop

5/27/2014 17 comments

Ignorance

by Alesana 5/27/2014

written by Alesana

Nothing, absolutely NOTHING, gets to me more than people who don’t understand anxiety and depression, so they treat you like you’re a whiny ***** for everything. If you don’t understand it that’s fine, not everyone does. But don’t go and treat me like a fucking ***** who whines about “stupid shit.” Until you know what it feels like to have parents hate you, “friends” who only stay around because they hope you’ll eventually sleep with them then treat you like you’re less than human because you don’t, been raped, been abused, held a knife to your throat ready to pull it… bottle of pills in […]

5/27/2014 1 comment

Don’t be a boring person, Just try to be interesting

by addicted 5/14/2014

written by addicted

Positive attitude, hope, doing things, man of action…etc all these are boring and it is for looser.

Just experience nihilism, existentialism, Efilism, AntinatalismÂ Â these are all so interesting we fell in love with them and ready to give our life for these.

First case is for mentally underdeveloped people.

Therefore start asking yourself questions Â ” what is the purpose of human life, is there any meaning at all?, does the all struggle we undergo- is it worth at all? “

5/14/2014 3 comments

Going nowhere

by ShadowMoses 5/11/2014

written by ShadowMoses

I can’t get out of my own head.

All the things I used to care about I don’t anymore. I used to care about working with youth and becoming a teacher and Changing someone’s life. Now I’ve dropped out of teaching school and my extra curricular activity working with youth.

I feel very unimportant in all aspects of my life. My hours at work got cut, now that other people have been hired I’mÂ not important at work anymore. I stopped going to youth as my importance there dropped off. I used to do lectures there and now I’m not asked to do that anymore. I don’t know […]

5/11/2014 1 comment

I’m ready to be done with everything, but I’m so scared..

by aflockofpandas 5/9/2014

written by aflockofpandas

My names Logan. I’m a sophmore in high school and i just dont want to live anymore. I cant take life anymore. A few months ago is when it started when I got my license and my friend wrecked my car. He was my drug dealer, and don’t take me wrong, i’m no “druggie”, i just occasionally smoked marijuana to help with all the stress school gives me. He ran and fled the scene and found out he didn’t have a license. All I hear at school is how big of a fuck up i am for it, and people who just harass me for […]

5/9/2014 4 comments

Fuck you

by hellblau 5/4/2014

written by hellblau

It’s like I’m ready to leave, and go away, and the you come back and drag me once again. I’m getting tired, Fucking hurts but I fucking Love it.

5/4/2014 0 comment

Hopefully this is goodbye

by goingnumb 5/3/2014

written by goingnumb

Tonight is it hopefully I’m done. What life has for me isn’t what I want nor what I can bare. I’m just numb the feeling hurts. ive got my plan ready. I’ve decided I always n knew that it would come to this. I’m to stupid for life to ugly to fucked up for it I can’t stand being in my skin a minute longer I’m tired of weeping I’m retired of being depressed I can’t get help I’m tired of being tired. So goodbye. I hope everybody is better of thani the future

5/3/2014 20 comments

The First Try

by onthefringes 5/2/2014

written by onthefringes

(I addressed this to a friend. The thing is, I won’t send it to her. I want it to be read, though, so please do.)

Read this in a place and time where you can handle an emotional outburst. You can’t know how sorry I am for burdening you with this, but you deserve an explanation.

If you feel guilty at this for any second, I swear I will haunt you for the rest of your life.

1/13/14. I have no idea what you were doing that day, but you might remember it by receiving a somewhat suicidal message from me. You texted me later, and I eventually […]

5/2/2014 1 comment

I’m just tired.

by Serena Solita 4/25/2014

written by Serena Solita

I’ve attempted suicide before. One time I got really close. Each time I was young and didn’t know enough. The first time, I was twelve. I didn’t know you had to go up the road. The second, a couple years later, I wasn’t able to find the courage at the bottom of that deep bottle. The last time, I came really close. Put myself in a two day coma. I was 18 and still lived at home with my family and siblings. I even had a girlfriend. No one knew.

That was the last time. I got counseling, per my girlfriends request, after coming out to […]

4/25/2014 3 comments

who is out there?

by DaRiot2307 4/23/2014

written by DaRiot2307

I look at what choices i have. i can let it take me under or fight back. ive fought for a decade or more. my insides are shutting down like its preparing for the worst. ive researched meds that can be lethal. i look one last time and ask myself who is out there to care for someone like me. im on my death bed but im the captain. im ready.

4/23/2014 2 comments

Night Air

by jjistheword 4/15/2014

written by jjistheword

I want this pain to go away

All I do is feel terrible everyday

Nobody likes me, I know this is true

Everyone hates me, there is not doubt within

I feel as though I’m ready now

To go away

…..for good

4/15/2014 0 comment

im a ghost

by killmealready97 4/14/2014

written by killmealready97

im sat here in the middle of my moms living room on the couch listening to music,its like im a ghost they dont see me and if they do they dont care that im here so why am i? why havent I ended it they would notice me hours if I went to my room and ended it they wouldnt find me till its too late,they wont care they never have they know im depressed and they dont even try anymore I see it in their eyes they think im fucked up freak and maybe am which makes it that much clearer that I shouldnt […]

4/14/2014 4 comments

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