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F*** You ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad’

by xsaetocoehnehrasyedax 2/10/2014

written by xsaetocoehnehrasyedax

Dear ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad’,

I’ve always hated you. Â I’ve never trusted you with anything. Â All you’ve ever done is beat and criticize me. Â Hey mom, remember that time youÂ accidentallyÂ threw me down the stairs when I was four? Â Hey dad, do you remember that time I came back home from first grade one day and you started yelling and hitting me? Â What about that time when I couldn’t go to school for a week in third grade because you burned my fucking arm? Â You remember how making me scream in pain became a routine for you? Â Do you both remember all those times you called me whore, […]

2/10/2014 11 comments

Fear of abandonment

by Sunnygirl1 2/10/2014

written by Sunnygirl1

Ever since I was nine years old, I remember always thinking that my father was going to leave me. He always used to tell me that he was going to send me to live with my grandmother just to make me upset. He used to leave me alone in public, in the metro, in the mall, on the street.

My mother did that too. She used to leave me alone in the house for hours at a time when I was three. My neighbors had to call social services, and I was almost taken away. Sometimes I wish I was.

My father still does this to me, […]

2/10/2014 4 comments

by hellblau 2/6/2014

written by hellblau

I love Star Wars. Somehow I made you more into it.

I remember when we were talking, I told you I was 100% dark side. You told me you were not. “I’m a good guy” he said. So I laughed and said : I like bad boys. he replied: well, breaking your heart would be evil. He said smiling.

I smiled back, but then I started to think about it.

And after a while, you finally did. You broke my heart.

welcome to the dark side my rebel scum.

2/6/2014 1 comment

what is wrong with me

by mariaheb 2/4/2014

written by mariaheb

this depression i cant get over. im almost 23 years old n life isnt life anymore. 10 years of this bullshit. numerous attempted suicides. july 5, 2012 i thought was it for me. i had taken 60+ pills. i just didnt care anymore. at one point i had it all. a job, school, living in my own apartment. today im jobless, living at home with my parents who could care less about my problems, and a single parent. that day i woke up and had completely given up on life. i remember the paramedics trying to talk to me. i was to drugged up for […]

2/4/2014 4 comments

When there is nothing else?

by oceans_quest 2/2/2014

written by oceans_quest

I am not happy. I don’t ever really remember a time Â I was ever truly happy. Â That’s the first time I have ever admitted that to myself. Â I talked to my mother last week she said that her children are what give her a reason to fight when ever she feels down. What if Â you don’t have anything to make you fight to stay. That’s were Â I am in my life right now. Â I never loved or been loved, If i was to leave this earth today it wouldn’t Â impact any ones life. I could be happy. So when there is nothing else […]

2/2/2014 5 comments

how long?

by Bipolar8609 2/2/2014

written by Bipolar8609

I cant remember a time when i wasn’t depressed, how long has it been for you? i think im going on about 3 years years now….but then again ive only been alive for 16

2/2/2014 2 comments

Words. Us.

by purplepain 1/31/2014

written by purplepain

“How were things before? Surely there had to have been something positive. Had there been anything that really moved me, anything that really moved anyone? Maybe, but it was all gone now. Lost, perhaps meant to be lost. Nothing I can do about it, got to let it go.”

–Haruki Murakami, A WILD SHEEP CHASE

Why is it that in moments of confusion and hurt everything you read, listen to, etc, everything seems to be reading your mind, seems to be about you? Or is it just our broken mind, twisting and turning every word? Trying to find meanings, related to our thoughts and our life; meanings […]

1/31/2014 0 comment

Touch me, please

by annoyingburdenchild95 1/31/2014

written by annoyingburdenchild95

I need you to touch me. Make me feel wanted. Pull my hair, choke me, I don’t care! Just make it sweet. Make me feel loved. Help me believe you still want me, when all the signs say no. I yearn to feel you again, or for you to at least want me. I remember when you loved me… Oh, I remember…

1/31/2014 2 comments

Ãœberdosis

by Ignorance 1/30/2014

written by Ignorance

I can hardly place these thoughts into words, into sentences. I am incapable of being happy with a free education, food, home, clothes, and people all around wanting to take care of me. I am not abused, not regularly anyways. A text from my mom sometimes: I must b a total loser since u stay with Mike. Mike is my father, but far from a winner. If this child game is nothing but who wins and who doesn’t, I’d suggest that they are the ones in need of extensive therapy. Not me, I’m their child, they spawned me out of their supposed love. Raised […]

1/30/2014 0 comment

Aunty D. Is a Funny One……

by DontReallySeeThePoint 1/29/2014

written by DontReallySeeThePoint

There are those times in all of our lives, where we feel like we haven’t seen her in such a long time.

There are some times, you haven’t seen her in such a long time, you don’t even remember what she looks like.

It is usually around that time, she decides to come over for a surprise visit, she’s a funny one, that aunt D.

She can come to you while you were having a great day, then you lie in bed and her ugly face shows up again.

Or sometimes, just when you feel like you cannot bear her company anymore, she gets up and leaves.

But in the […]

1/29/2014 1 comment

Depression, for me.

by Pum 1/28/2014

written by Pum

Everything was dull. Clouds hung over my head no matter how brightly the sun shone. I had to resist the nearly uncontrollable urge to fall flat on the ground, curl up into the grey hoodie I had been wearing for days, and cry. It pained me to smile. I was going through one of the worst bouts of major depression I have ever endured.
I fell into a rabbit hole, and theories, disorders, and research, along with a whole lot of blurry and blank areas was my wonderland. I ached to know more. I needed to know as much as I possibly could know about […]

1/28/2014 4 comments

I should be dead but I am not

by toxicluminoth 1/27/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I am lost and scared and I’m no where near fixed but I am not dead.

I still think about suicide often and I remained un-medicated until a few moments ago when I popped the first pill to happy (doxepin).

I am getting therapy. Every once in a while it will give me something useful but not often. I don’t think I’ll be sticking with it in the long run. Maybe once every few months.

I may be unable to sleep due to apnea or even my sinus being closed off because of a random act of violence back in 07′. Apparently sleep deprivation is a bad thing…

I […]

1/27/2014 2 comments

True Friendship

by whyme336 1/26/2014

written by whyme336

I’ve never had a true friendship until I met my best friend/sisster/coach. I mean I’ve had friends but never one I could go to about anything. I’ve had fake friends, friends that used me, friends that left me, friends I’ve pushed away. It feels so good to have a true friend that knows everything and you can always go to. A friend that brings the best out in you. A friend that loves you for you and not the person you make everyone else fall for. A friend you trust with your life. One that will do anything for you. One that you will do […]

1/26/2014 0 comment

I think it is time.

by asecretuntoldbyme 1/23/2014

written by asecretuntoldbyme

You ever feel numb inside and you just dont want to anything, Â you think about how many people you have hurt you know that you put them through so much pain. You know inside that you should just find a way to get your mind off of things but you turn your music up but your head phones on and all you think about is dying. All you want to do die. Lay in the road…JUST GET OUT OF THE WORLD.. Your ex text you and you just want to cry.. You just want to grab your blade but then you remember you flushed them […]

1/23/2014 3 comments

I lost 2 people within the last 3 days.. RIP Rebecca Larson

by Addiictivetragedy 1/22/2014

written by Addiictivetragedy

Heaven has called yet another angel
I can’t believe you are gone, but you are loved. You were always happy with such a beautiful and angelic smile. You had the most amazing personality and I will remember all of the hugs.
Rest in peace
Rebecca Larson
You were a angel on earth but now you’ve earned your wings <3

1/22/2014 4 comments

My story

by Sir White 12/24/2013

written by Sir White

I’m struggling with my own life and most of the time i think that everyones life will be a whole much better if i’m not around, so most of the time i feel like self harming or just ‘falling’ of a building because yes they will be sad but after a few days they wont even remember my name, for most of my life i have been bullied for being different and i never feel like i fit in any where even when at home, when i was young my parents kept agueing and then they split up and seeing my mum go pretty much […]

12/24/2013 0 comment

Fixing “Us”

by Miss.Mayhem 11/5/2012

written by Miss.Mayhem

I may have fallen once again for him. Maybe I’m stupid…Â actuallyÂ I am. I’m not saying he will break my heart but from all he’s said and done, it’s going to take a long time to fix “us”. I don’tÂ trustÂ him but I love him. I have faith that we will be together for a long time, but I did think that last time. I honestly don’t know what to think, I guess I’m just going to go with it this time. At least if he does fuck me over, I’ll know what to expect this time.

Then again sometime the thought of him never coming into my […]

11/5/2012 0 comment

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