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Resolve

stalemate (I’m a brand new user)

by walkingcontradiction 1/20/2013

written by walkingcontradiction

I try to plan an effective way to kill myself, how to do so in a way that would still put my organs to good use, how to do so in a way that minimizes the chance of survival etc. etc. but as I am being comforted by my planning, the people I am close to in my life pop up in my mind. Then my resolve disappears.

I couldn’t do something like that to them, whether or not I manage to make it look like an accident. I’ve never experienced someone close to me dying so I have no idea how painful it actually […]

1/20/2013 7 comments

One Last Night

by Starlove 11/16/2012

written by Starlove

Tomorrow is so close, yet it seems to take an eternity to arrive. Tomorrow is the day I’ve decided to kill myself. I feel at a general ease with that knowledge, and my brain tells me I should be horrified with the looming prospect of my demise. Screw that, I done being afraid, I’ve had near constant head and stomach aches all week, but now they’re gone. I’m not going to take my meds tomorrow because I didn’t today, no more point anymore. I suspect I will be more anxious and sick tomorrow night, but oh well. I’ll get home, masturbate one last time, then […]

11/16/2012 4 comments

My Time Is Coming To An End

by Mike777 10/16/2012

written by Mike777

As my days tick down i grow a little nervous, but at the same time relieved that my suffering will soon come to an end.Â I’m starting to feel the emotional pain of those left behind and what they will feel.Â But I’m really not close to my family and have no kids so they will recover just fine. i think they will understand that my mental illness has been too much and the future looks grim. I’m wrapping up final details here and there.Â tomorrow I get dog his bordetella vaccine so he can be boarded for 3 days till my father picks him […]

10/16/2012 3 comments

Control

by Citizen 9/9/2012

written by Citizen

Itâ€™s the loss of control

No, it isnâ€™t giving up your motor functions. You can move, you can talk and you can open and close your eyes; but open eyes see a hostile world that tolerates its own crumbling demise, but not yours, and closed eyes see the slanted razor you most certainly think will take the pain away. Move, if you wish, but wherever your legs carry you, your shame and guilt, your self condemnation will follow at your heels, eating away at your resolve and desire. Speak, my friend. Speak, but only what they want, because anything but is a pretension of higher knowledge […]

9/9/2012 0 comment

I know this is stupid… so why do i still feel bad?

by bryan1989 1/8/2012

written by bryan1989

4 years ago, I tried to kill myself… the biggest regret in my life is that I failed. Today, my best friends mom called me to tell me that he no longer wants to be my friend. 22 years old and he can’t even tell me that himself??? I have stupid small medical problems, one after another, constantly holding me back from completely being healthy. Nothing major like cancer or anything, but still big enough to keep me down. And now this… my closest friend decides to drop me, and actually blocked my phone number so I couldn’t even ask him why. Why do I […]

1/8/2012 4 comments