Today was the first day of my senior year. It went okay better then what  i expected. I don’t have  many friends nor anyone  i can trust. So here i go to another pointless year. About a year ago my ex boyfriend left the school because i broke up with him because he had cheated on me. I mean it was the right thing to do ? He got all depressed and tried to commit suicide. He got badly injured and ended up getting  hospitalized for about three weeks.  By that time everyone had known at school and i  got blamed for it. i got […]
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Right Direction
I visited SP last year but was afraid because I wasn’t sure if I was heading towards the right direction. I was really confused and unsure of my life. But a lot has happened in 12 months and I feel like I can relate to the other people on this site. I don’t want to end my life but fix it and make it better.
The last 3 years off my life has been hell and I have suffered from suicide attempts and self harm. I have wrote my story down but it is 500 pages long and too big for here. I am trying to publish it to promote awareness for mental health. I have made a video of it on YouTube. You can look up a friend 4 me – diary of a suicide survivor. If anyone can point me in the right direction I would be very greatful. Thankyou.
I just came out to my Dad tonight. I did not plan that at all. Came up totally unexpected. He came to talk to me because he noticed I was depressed and struggling and eventually things led to wanting to come out to him. I was so scared. I knew it was something I needed to do though. It took me so long to get it out. He’s a super conservative Catholic…so you can see why I would be scared shitless. He took it surprisingly calmly. But I don’t feel the relief I wish I had felt. I still feel like he doesn’t fully accept […]
I know this is ridiculously long and most of you won’t care about what I have to say. That’s okay. I just needed to release some depression somewhere. I’ve been feeling worse and worse lately even though I know I’m trying to head in the right direction. I just needed to vent some frustration. I always say I’m doing this for me, changing for myself, but it still kills me when my family shows me how worthless I am… so here are my thoughts for the past week.
I’m amazed at how well I’ve become at wearing a mask. I’m able to conceal my emotions so […]
I don’t WANT to kill myself-right now I am afraid to-but if I had the courage I would do it.
I was severely depressed before my mom died 6 weeks ago but I have been EXTREMELY depressed ever since then.
I do not want to talk with someone on the phone right now-just online-ideally IM chat with them-one on one.
Can ANYONE steer me in right direction?
Thank you.