Servers

I have insomnia.  I have been diagnosed with servers depression and I really don’t know where to turn to anymore.  I am up all night and exhausted during the day.  I feel absolutely useless to my boyfriend who said to me that it will be ok and it isn’t because he is the one who has found me multiple times blacked out on the floor with a razor in hand.  I’m unemployed and unable to find work.  I am contemplating suicide and I just need someone to listen.