While swindling down a bottle of Americana Black Cherry Soda, I had an idea. my squadron’s chaplain. I knew I could talk to him about my depression. He’s such a kind guy, and he was always very understanding. I’m doing it this Tuesday, let’s pray i don’t get sent to a mental hospital. Â And if I do, I’ll see you all on her other side.
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lithium. wow. that is what its come to. modern pharmacology has failed me. i had always thought that lithium was for the real nutcases. so i guess that moniker belongs to me as well. i am scared. reading about it and the side effects are scary. especially the toxicity thing. i am not very good at keeping myself adequately hydrated. drink too much soda and not enough water. don’t want to spend all my time on the john. not very conducive to getting any work done. i quit taking risperdal cold turkey. big mistake. i didn’t think 1 mg was a big deal. a week […]
Those words..
They sting..
Worse then heartbreak? Actually, yeah.
And those words, there coming from my Dad.
“I don’t know boys you’ve been kissing.”
He wouldn’t let me drink out of his soda..
Yeah, it hurt. But I just laughed like it was a joke..
Nope, it wasn’t.
k I crushed pills… put them in a sandwich.. ick! threw it away and had to chug soda after the first bite. so I crushed even more and mixed it in with yogurt and it didn’t taste that bad so i took like one bite then went to get a drink and when I did my grandfather said we could go out for lunch. If he hadn’t, i would’ve finished the yogurt… oh well. I’m not worth them knowing my misery. they don’t care anyways… no one cares but my mom… What would she think? and my puppy in Florida too… I miss my Bella… […]
I just ate something that I really don’t feel like throwing up. I’m just sitting here, not knowing what to do. And its not just for the moment. It’s not knowing what to do with my life. Who says I can’t play God with my own life? Nobody. I already have a huge bag full of aspirin in my room. I have a bottle of soda too. I know it probably won’t work like the two other times I tried it, and I will just silently throw up my guts in the bathroom while everyone is sleeping.
I read the one comment I got on my other […]